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Not feeling like I should - My dad passed away yesterday

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My dad lost his long fight with cancer yesterday. Even though the fight was long the end was quick he spent Sunday at a wedding and gone on Monday. I was lucky enough to have been there by chance, I even washed and dressed his body for the undertakers. I of course cried, but I feel like I should be worse than I am, I thought I wouldn't be able to drag myself out of bed today but I got up and cleaned and sorted my kids and went about my normal routine. My family have broken down and had panic attacks and I feel like I should have too. My dad was young, he was my best friend, we was so close. I feel unbelievable guilt for feeling like I should be crying all day especially where it's so new. Could I be in shock? I just feel weird instead 

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    Hey I'm so sorry for your loss. We all cope differently and when my mum passed I don't think it really hit me until 3-6 months later... To begin with you're just dealing with everything and managing everything and you don't have time to really appreciate that they're really gone. Sorting funerals, assets, homes, telling people what's happened, sorting family, remembering to eat, drink and bathe with all that's going on around you... You're managing and coping just as you and your brain needs you to.

    You're doing fine and you're grieving how you need to. If you feel you need to cry now then fine, if you feel you need to crack jokes to manage for now, then that's fine too.

    You may be upset a few months down the line like I was. When it suddenly really hits you. Or you may not.

    You're in a state of shock at the moment as well  - it does get easier and please don't compare your feelings to others as your feelings are your own. sending you and your family lots of love and healing thoughts x

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    Hey I'm so sorry for your loss. We all cope differently and when my mum passed I don't think it really hit me until 3-6 months later... To begin with you're just dealing with everything and managing everything and you don't have time to really appreciate that they're really gone. Sorting funerals, assets, homes, telling people what's happened, sorting family, remembering to eat, drink and bathe with all that's going on around you... You're managing and coping just as you and your brain needs you to.

    You're doing fine and you're grieving how you need to. If you feel you need to cry now then fine, if you feel you need to crack jokes to manage for now, then that's fine too.

    You may be upset a few months down the line like I was. When it suddenly really hits you. Or you may not.

    You're in a state of shock at the moment as well  - it does get easier and please don't compare your feelings to others as your feelings are your own. sending you and your family lots of love and healing thoughts x

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