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Losing my Mum

Claireh26
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I wanted to ask you how you cope watching someone you love dearly losing their life to this disgusting illness. I lost my Dad in March and my Mum is losing her fight against Multiple Myeloma. I'm sitting at her bedside now in the hospital watching this tiny but mighty lady that means the world to me literally fading. The cancer is affecting her brain now and she can't speak and can't open her eyes. Swallowing is also difficult. I've been sitting here all night dreading her passing away. I am not sure if I should be here when that time comes or not. Im scared for what is going to happen to me afterwards as I have no family and no one now that my Mum is going to go. I am

so broken and devastated I don't think I will ever be able to get over this: it is like being in a terrible nightmare . I'm trying to be strong for my Mum but my heart is broken and it actually physically hurts me to imagine my life without my best friend and Mum. Please tell me that you can cope when something like this happens as I don't think I can . I'm broken and I feel like I've died too. 

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    Dear Claire. I'm so very sorry to hear about your Mum. I send my love and best wishes to you. It's incredibly hard to watch your Mum fade. I was at my Mums side in hospital when she passed away in February. It was an exhausting 2 days and I'll be honest incredibly difficult but I didn't want her to be alone. The decision whether to stay has to be yours, but know there is no right or wrong.

    I hear you with the term nightmare, that feeling of being in a nightmare has stayed with me for some time and the physical feeling you describe still rears itself occasionally. It IS getting easier though. Grief lasts a lifetime but you start to learn to live with it and yes you CAN cope, you will find strength to carry on and smile again. Grief counselling may be a help.

    You are in my thoughts x

     

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    Dear Claire. I'm so very sorry to hear about your Mum. I send my love and best wishes to you. It's incredibly hard to watch your Mum fade. I was at my Mums side in hospital when she passed away in February. It was an exhausting 2 days and I'll be honest incredibly difficult but I didn't want her to be alone. The decision whether to stay has to be yours, but know there is no right or wrong.

    I hear you with the term nightmare, that feeling of being in a nightmare has stayed with me for some time and the physical feeling you describe still rears itself occasionally. It IS getting easier though. Grief lasts a lifetime but you start to learn to live with it and yes you CAN cope, you will find strength to carry on and smile again. Grief counselling may be a help.

    You are in my thoughts x

     

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