hi new to this  

I lost my darling wife November 21  and I'm not coping to well still  was told she had bowle cancer  October  and would have 18 months to 2 years    but first dose of chemotherapy  reacted bad and she became really ill she died 6 weeks after being told she had it 

now I've tried to keep going  im back at work  but  I cant seem to have a good day   and coming home to our home I sit and day dream  can't get over her not being here   I've prayed to be taken so I can be with her again  even suicide has crossed my mind   just need some guidance