Hi. I thought I would reply as your experience is very similar to mine. 
 

My mother passed away on 5th November, she was 60. It was all very sudden and within 6 weeks from diagnosis she had gone. We were still trying to digest she had cancer let alone anything else.

I was there when she passed, watching someone you love deteriorate in front of your eyes and knowing there is nothing you can do is extremely traumatic. The smallest of things are triggers to me at the moment from it. 

I am an only child also. Me and my mother were very close as my parents split when I was young. I've just turned 31 so a little bit older than you but everything you have said I can relate to. The wedding, the grand children, the lost future. It's very hard to think of a world without my mother. 
 

I also feel the emptiness you talk about. It feels like she took a piece of me with her when she left and my heart is so heavy all the time. Sometimes the pain is unbearable and when I think I can't possibly feel like this anymore it does get a little bit lighter or I try and distract myself for a short time. 
 

It's been 5 weeks for me, I can't say it's got any easier, although I wish I could tell you it does. But I try to think that my mother wouldn't want me to waste my life constantly crying. I have started doing little things again around the house, seeing some friends, walking the dogs etc. I found getting out of bed absolutely horrendous the first few weeks, but if it helps that is starting to get less overbearing. 

All I can say is your mother won't be with your physically at your wedding but she will be with your in spirit. She knew about the date and you must go through with it in her honour. 
 

I hope that it helps to know that your not alone and your not the only one suffering, because grief is very isolating. I'm happy to chat if you ever feel like you need someone. 
 

I have also started seeing a counsellor privately that has helped me feel a bit better about myself and know that what I'm feeling is normal. 

Hi. I thought I would reply as your experience is very similar to mine. 
 

My mother passed away on 5th November, she was 60. It was all very sudden and within 6 weeks from diagnosis she had gone. We were still trying to digest she had cancer let alone anything else.

I was there when she passed, watching someone you love deteriorate in front of your eyes and knowing there is nothing you can do is extremely traumatic. The smallest of things are triggers to me at the moment from it. 

I am an only child also. Me and my mother were very close as my parents split when I was young. I've just turned 31 so a little bit older than you but everything you have said I can relate to. The wedding, the grand children, the lost future. It's very hard to think of a world without my mother. 
 

I also feel the emptiness you talk about. It feels like she took a piece of me with her when she left and my heart is so heavy all the time. Sometimes the pain is unbearable and when I think I can't possibly feel like this anymore it does get a little bit lighter or I try and distract myself for a short time. 
 

It's been 5 weeks for me, I can't say it's got any easier, although I wish I could tell you it does. But I try to think that my mother wouldn't want me to waste my life constantly crying. I have started doing little things again around the house, seeing some friends, walking the dogs etc. I found getting out of bed absolutely horrendous the first few weeks, but if it helps that is starting to get less overbearing. 

All I can say is your mother won't be with your physically at your wedding but she will be with your in spirit. She knew about the date and you must go through with it in her honour. 
 

I hope that it helps to know that your not alone and your not the only one suffering, because grief is very isolating. I'm happy to chat if you ever feel like you need someone. 
 

I have also started seeing a counsellor privately that has helped me feel a bit better about myself and know that what I'm feeling is normal.