I'm so very sorry for your loss.

I lost my mum in July 2021, she was diagnosed with 2 types of leukaemia.

I was her eldest of 4 daughters, and she was my mum, my dad, my best friend. 
mum am also struggling, not coping.

my mum was diagnosed September 2020, and she was unable to receive a stem cell transplant as the two round of chemotherapy she received caused heart failure.

she was told there was no cancer in April 2021, and on the 20th of may 2021 I went into hospital with pains in my chest, face, jaw, neck, shoulders and arms, doctors said I had broken heart syndrome and a swollen heart due to an infection.

they kept me in hospital for 15 days, they discovered I had multiple heart attacks while I was in hospital and I had stents fitted. The day I came out of hospital my mum went back in hospital and was told the cancer had returned and she had weeks to live.

while I was in hospital she came to look after my 3 young children, and I tild her not to as she was very weak and still very ill, she said they were her grandchildren and she was looking after them, you couldn't win a argument with my mum, then for 6 weeks I would go back and forth and stay with her a few days until she passed away.

what I am now writing in no way describes the feelings or love or care what was felt fo her as that is too painful to put into words.

But since she passed I have increasingly lost sense of reality. My brain can't see logic and I'm truly debilitated.

how do you live without your moral compass, without the one person that loves and cares for you without conditions.

the tears they don't stop, the pain is indescribable, and she was only 61. My children lost their nanny. I lost my soul.

I can't see how I will ever feel any normality again.

I'm so very sorry for your loss.

I lost my mum in July 2021, she was diagnosed with 2 types of leukaemia.

I was her eldest of 4 daughters, and she was my mum, my dad, my best friend. 
mum am also struggling, not coping.

my mum was diagnosed September 2020, and she was unable to receive a stem cell transplant as the two round of chemotherapy she received caused heart failure.

she was told there was no cancer in April 2021, and on the 20th of may 2021 I went into hospital with pains in my chest, face, jaw, neck, shoulders and arms, doctors said I had broken heart syndrome and a swollen heart due to an infection.

they kept me in hospital for 15 days, they discovered I had multiple heart attacks while I was in hospital and I had stents fitted. The day I came out of hospital my mum went back in hospital and was told the cancer had returned and she had weeks to live.

while I was in hospital she came to look after my 3 young children, and I tild her not to as she was very weak and still very ill, she said they were her grandchildren and she was looking after them, you couldn't win a argument with my mum, then for 6 weeks I would go back and forth and stay with her a few days until she passed away.

what I am now writing in no way describes the feelings or love or care what was felt fo her as that is too painful to put into words.

But since she passed I have increasingly lost sense of reality. My brain can't see logic and I'm truly debilitated.

how do you live without your moral compass, without the one person that loves and cares for you without conditions.

the tears they don't stop, the pain is indescribable, and she was only 61. My children lost their nanny. I lost my soul.

I can't see how I will ever feel any normality again.