Hello, 

I've come here because I'm not sure where else to go. I've just found out in the past week that my Dad has prostate cancer, which has metasised to his pubic bone. His PSA levels were extrremely high, 164, and his Gleason score is 10. He's 72, but you wouldn't think it. He is so fit and healthy and he only went to the doctors in the first place because he had a pain in his leg, which we now know is because it spread to his bone. I am an only child, I'm 26, I live near my parents and have been staying over since we find out. 

My Dad is mostly postive, he has started his hormone therapy and in July he will have 6 rounds of chemo. They can manage but they can't cure. They said it's really agressive cancer, but they can keep him going, but for how long? I can't bear to watch my Dad go through this pain, he's the kindest, sweetest most generous man. And my Mum, my Dad is my mums world, she just keeps asking me "how are we going to cope" - she's imagining herself all alone in this home they built together, and to be honest, so am I. I am trying to be strong and resume normality but this has changed everything. I thought my Dad would live to see me get married, go far in my career. I want him to be there, to watch me grow. I don't want him to leave Mum all alone. I don't have any siblings to share this with - my friends are supportive and my boyfriend too but, I just feel so hopeless. Would be reassured to hear of anyone else in the same boat.

Thank you