Hi Paddock

Really sorry to hear that - I'm at the other end of that journey - my wife died after 3 years of cancer back in October.

I don't know your position - how long you think you have with your husband, whether he is having treatment, how capable he is etc. but yes it is scary (even more so for him I'd say!) but it doesn't have to be lonely.

You have him, for now at least, and you'll want to spend as much time as you can with him. Do friends and familly know? or is he one of these people who doesn't want people to know? that can be difficult.

In any event you'll find lots of people on here in very similar situations who will be more than ready to offer advice,support or just sympathise when you're having a bad day.

In time you may even find that you can offer such advice and support to others - you'd be amazed how theraputic that can be.

Sorry you are here but welcome none the less

My husband is on palliative chemotherapy, and has been for nearly 2: years. I'm scared as I can see him deteriorating, he lives his life to the full, and is very strong, he gets on with things and lives his life, I try to do the same, but at the same time, if I lost him I will be devastated 

My husband is on palliative chemotherapy, and has been for nearly 2: years. I'm scared as I can see him deteriorating, he lives his life to the full, and is very strong, he gets on with things and lives his life, I try to do the same, but at the same time, if I lost him I will be devastated