My mum is only in her early 50's and is the strongest and most selfless person I know. In January she went in for a simple hysterectomy after being assured her bleeding was a result of the menopause and definitely was not cancer.

When they did the surgery, the found a cancerous tumour and removed as much of it as they could. A month or so later, we found out she also had another primary cancer - in her bowel. She had aggressive chemo and immunotherapy and we were told the prognosis was positive although it would be a long road ahead. Fast forward 9 months and my poor mum has had several hospital admissions due to sepsis and immune mediated colitis as a result of the chemo destroying her immune system. A few days ago, we were told she only had a couple of months to live. The next day they told us that perhaps they were wrong and she had much longer. Yesterday they told us they have found shadows in her liver and it was be that the cancer has spread.

I am so confused and broken. The information we are getting keeps changing and I feel so lost and helpless. Up until a few days ago, I knew my mum was really sick but I had hope she would eventually get better. Now I feel like I have to face the reality that it's unlikely she ever will and I don't know how much time I have left with her. She is my best friend and the thought of going on without her seems impossible. I dont know how best to support her. She is quite confused and sometimes agitated at the moment and I don't know how best to help. I'm heart broken. Sorry this is just a long message about how I'm feeling but I'm just so lost right now.