Morning. I've sent you a friend request 

How did you sleep? I woke at 6am. Managed to go back to sleep on and off untill 9am which is really good. But I have the strangest dreams.

I'm snappy too. And I'm sure the kids know something is wrong. 

Today is going to be hard, and the morning. Got to get the kids to school and then off to the hospital for results. I'm dreading it. I hope they have all the results and I don't have to have more tests. I'm so scared, but I want to know now what's going on. I'm bleeding heavy today, hard to tell if it's a period as I've lost track. But it doesn't feel like one. 

Im loosing weight too. Its probably stress 

And I know what you mean about adverts. I'm trying to stick to netflix and I only have the radio on in the car for the kids. I keep seeing stories pop up on Facebook. Can't escape it.

I hope your feeling OK this morning xx

Good afternoon

 Being honest I'm still in bed.. I'm feeling very low and what's the point. Its hard doing anything because all I'm waiting for is the phone call

I slept okish.

That's lovely about the friend request

I'll try and find it I'm dire with technology.

What are your dreams about?

I'll be thinking about you today xx

You really are a special lady it shines through in your chat. 

I know it's every where just stop ramming it down our throats x, 

Hi Fallmare, 

I'm not sure if you've managed to find Sunshine90's friend request yet but if not, I hope our guide on how to accept a friend request will help :happy:

Kind regards,

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Hi steph

I think have.. But thankyou for helping me x

Thank you steph. She found me

Feel free to message me anytime you want.

I'm feeling awful today, I'm so anxious about tomorrow. You should try and get out of bed, it might help. And it's unlikely you will get a call on a Sunday. Did they say how long it will be untill you get the results? I was told I would get a call but I didn't. I had to call them, i was told that I would get a letter with a date for an appointment. But I think it all depends on the area you live on how they go about things.

This time tomorrow I will know more about what's going on. I feel so sick thinking about it. 

I would still be in bed if I was in the house on my own. But Im cooking a roast for 6, the smell is making me feel ill and I'm really finding it hard to put on a brave face. Inside I'm a complete mess. 

This is awful isn't it. Im going to force some food down me then have a shower and take my youngest out for short walk. 

My dreams are mainly about me bleeding. I have a big fear of bleeding as I bled alot after having my youngest child and had to be rushed to a different hospital. So all this bleeding now is really not helping me. 

Deep breaths! Think happy thoughts, we will be ok xx

Hello. How was your day? 

I'm glad you got up and had something to eat. Yes my stomach has been all over the place. It had settled a bit but its starting again now with the anxiety of tomorrow. 

I'm getting lots of different symptoms too. I don't know what's real and what's in my head anymore.  Feel the same as you, like it's spread all over and there is no going back. No hope. But then the next minute I'm OK again and telling myself everything will be fine.

I've been staying off Google as I know it will make me worse. I've been searching things on here instead. I'm so glad I found this site. Everyone is so supportive and it's helping me so much. 

Xx

Hey

Its been a lazy one to be honest. Wasn't feeling to bad but having some pain this evening. 

What time is your appointment? I'll be with you in spirit 

I totally agree this site is brilliant 

I'm always scanning through because it makes you feel your not on your own in your thoughts 

I just feel there'll be no hope. Isn't that a dreadful way to feel.. When you see this successful C stories you think I'd love for that to be me. 

Hope your walk was good. 

I'm watching old comedies which is helping xx

I'm sorry to hear your in pain this evening. I've just taken some paracetamol as I normaly get a bit this time of night. But so far I'm not too bad. Still bleeding a bit.

Thank you honey, that's so nice. My appointment is 11.30 

I didn't go for a walk in the end. I found a few bits to do around the house. Getting uniforms ready for the kids and putting washing away.  The day went fast.

Im just getting the kids ready for bed then i will try and find something on TV to occupy my mind xx

Aww bless you I don't know how you do it.

You sound like a lovely mum

I've got my partner into watching the The Royal Family which he's never seen. So we're binge watching

I hope tomorrow goes well for you.  I won't message as I don't want to bother you. Will you let me know though?

All my very best wishes to you xx

If I hear anything I'll let you know