I'm cursed....

If its gonna go wrong it will @@

Dont know whose writing my script for 2020. But they need to change tack.....and sharpish 

#allinittogether xxxxx

So annoying so I went for my appointment today. And she said it is irregular in feeling etc and I need an ultrasound but now I have to wait another two weeks for this appointment. I'm not sure I will be able to wait another two weeks xx

2 weeks?! That's a long time to wait isn't it. I was lucky enough to have my ultrasound with the consultation. Hang in there, you'll get through this. One day at a time xxx

Whatsnext, 

Oh bless you 

#allinittogether xxxxx

I know I'm so disappointed. I will call hospital tomorrow and see if I can have any appointment. I'll even sit and wait if I have to. 
I honestly thought I'd know where I stood by now and I'm actually more anxious I think. 

 

cxx 

Morning from hell..... thought I'd got over balling my eyes out in the bathroom... trying to hide it from hubby...but hes not daft. 

So Ive more or less gone through the curved ball of ...your surgeon is ill........you've got a new one you've never met....  and your Op date is now nov 11th and not the 9th....at a hospital that isnt green...

Anything else you wanna throw at me? Hells teeth!! I've not had time to grieve for my dad yet...my kids have just lost their grandpa ..they dont need this. I DON'T NEED THIS!! 

It's like being in a flaming bubble..and there's no way out.  Cant go anywhere... except the hospital........ I am the worlds worst misery this morning...with a big chunk of angry bird thrown in.  Still got the sciatica giving me hell....... and a sore little toe that really diesnt need to get itself infected...otherwise that will put surgery back. #germolene  ...bucket loads. 

I swear to god I must have been someone really bad in a previous life. 

Rant over.......for now. 

Sorry girls. Needed to vent my spleen.thanks for being here means more than you'll probably ever know.

#allinittogether xxxxxx

You WILL get through this whatsnext, you've made it this far. It's true some people sail through life and others seem to be traipsing through a minefield. I can tell your not a defeatist, pull your big girl pants up, wipe your tears (there will be more, and that's fine, you need to release them) and focus on the hear and now. You can't change anything right now, the wheels are in motion. It may seem like an eternity but it really isn't that far away (11th)  you got this!!

Always here for you 

#inittogether xxxx

Bless you....xxxxx

#allinittogether

Things will all work out. Us women are built to go through anything. We are strong. 
Amd trust me everyone needs to rant. I do it enough. Xxx 

thinking about u and we're all here for u. 
 

xxx

I called hospital today 3 times and managed to get an ultra sound for Friday. So feeling a bit more relaxed atm. (Till Friday when I'll be bricking it) I just hope if it all looks bad I won't have to wait again to get further tests done. 
 

xxxx