Hi,

I was in your shoes 2 weeks ago! When I went to clinic (last Wednesday) I had mammogram and ultrasound. Radiographer was not worried about the lump/ swelling that has sent me there but said he felt something else. So he decided to do a biopsy there and then. It was nowhere near as bad as I would have expected. Practically painless. He put in a tiny marker for future ref, took another mammogram to be certain it was in the right place and that was it. A bit sore and bruised after but totally manageable.

I got a call today from consultant to say it was benign and doesn't need any follow up. So there are positive stories- try not to worry too much! Fingers crossed for you. Waiting is hard. I have an MRI on 21st Oct on pancreas so scared stiff about that!- Another waiting game :(

I hope all works out well for you. Take care. x

Hi

Thank you for replying. You feel so alone. Only hubby and my sister know..had to tell someone. Trying not to think of how to tell the kids if it IS BC. You can see I'm galloping down the road of scenarios. Which is worse making mental lists just incase? Or not in the hope you wont have to? Moved things around in 2 bedrooms yesterday just to keep me busy. If it's a 3 week wait this will be the tidiest house in the countyFell apart half way through tea...no apparent reason..wasnt thinking about it at the time. 

Lost my dad in July...this really easnt needed on top of all that. 

Xxxx

Thank you traciej

Sometimes I think I am imagining half of it... All these bumps and sensations can't be real!, then I shower or get changed and feel that blooming lump, that's there.. No doubt about that one.

I swear half the time I'm fine.. A perfectly functioning intelligent woman, the other half I'm a neurotic mad woman who wants to hibernate til it goes away :(

I know the odds are in my favour for a positive result, I know this but I have this feeling.... God I hope I'm wrong!

OK I'm in tears again so rant over. Sorry for this but I have nowhere else to say this out loud x thanks for listening xx 

That's what we're here for buzymamma!

If it helps to rant, scream, cry then do it. It's no good storing it inside, you will only feel worse. This was a reason I joined this chat forum, I didn't want to tell anyone until I had answers but at the same time I needed to talk to someone

#allinittogether xxx

Hi, 

No I didn't,  I  get my results tomorrow and yesterday a small red spot/lump has appeared right on top of the lump itself. Feeling so sick whenever I think about it. 

So I haven't read through the rest of the comments yet. I just saw your response.  

How are you? 

#allinittogether

Xxx

Bethan......crikey girl.  However have you coped for that long. 

Please keep ringing....or spend the 400 plus to get a diagnosis. It's a lot I know.  But maybe sue your Health Authority afterwards.  I'm not one for running to a lawyer. But in this case I would. 

Please stay on the thread. We are here for you.

#allinittogether xxxx

Oh Traciej....... I am so pleased for you. 

You must be soooooo relieved. 

#allinittogetherxxxx

So

I am 2 days away from the pre op. And whatever can go wrong seems to be. I dont roll around well on hospital couches. As a consequence I have been suffering with my hip and leg. And just to add insult to injury....little toe which was fine yesterday is now giving it large again today. 

And as I type this a letter lands from my consultant regarding last weeks consultation. Its not until you see it all written there in black and white, that it starts to look really scary....... grade III invasive ductal carcinoma (IHC) pending.....you could be offered breast reconstruction...or mastectomy....the palpable lump would be amenable to wide local excision...... etc etc oh my Feckin days ....15% have a potential need for more surgery....as you are aware you will need adjuvant radiotherapy..........

I need a cuppa!!!!!

#allinittogether xxxx

Telephone call

My consultant is ill.......... surgery has been put back to Nov 11th with another consultant. 

Nooooooòoooo!!!

#allinthistogether xxxx

Whatnext64, 

I am sorry that life is so daunting at the moment. Letters like that just seem awful and make things real. Do you have someone at home with you at the moment? 

#allinittogether xxx

Hi Dd

Yes I have my hubby and my pooch

#allinittogether xx

Oh no! Just when you start to get your head around the op they go and change it! Life can be such a bi**h sometimes!

Yes I'm so relieved! I had a feeling it was a cyst the way it was behaving. But I shan't be completely relaxed until I get the results on Friday

Good luck to all those attending appointments and results in the coming days 

#allinittogether xxx

Oh no! Just when you start to get your head around the op they go and change it! Life can be such a bi**h sometimes!

Yes I'm so relieved! I had a feeling it was a cyst the way it was behaving. But I shan't be completely relaxed until I get the results on Friday

Good luck to all those attending appointments and results in the coming days 

#allinittogether xxx

I'm cursed....

If its gonna go wrong it will @@

Dont know whose writing my script for 2020. But they need to change tack.....and sharpish 

#allinittogether xxxxx

So annoying so I went for my appointment today. And she said it is irregular in feeling etc and I need an ultrasound but now I have to wait another two weeks for this appointment. I'm not sure I will be able to wait another two weeks xx

2 weeks?! That's a long time to wait isn't it. I was lucky enough to have my ultrasound with the consultation. Hang in there, you'll get through this. One day at a time xxx

Whatsnext, 

Oh bless you 

#allinittogether xxxxx

I know I'm so disappointed. I will call hospital tomorrow and see if I can have any appointment. I'll even sit and wait if I have to. 
I honestly thought I'd know where I stood by now and I'm actually more anxious I think. 

 

cxx 

Of course, I'd feel disappointed too you went to an appointment expecting some answers, maybe wait for results but your anxiety now has to continue another fortnight where ANYTHING can happen ie covid. You can't afford to be kept waiting. Your mental health is at stake if nothing else!

Chin up!

Xxx

Morning from hell..... thought I'd got over balling my eyes out in the bathroom... trying to hide it from hubby...but hes not daft. 

So Ive more or less gone through the curved ball of ...your surgeon is ill........you've got a new one you've never met....  and your Op date is now nov 11th and not the 9th....at a hospital that isnt green...

Anything else you wanna throw at me? Hells teeth!! I've not had time to grieve for my dad yet...my kids have just lost their grandpa ..they dont need this. I DON'T NEED THIS!! 

It's like being in a flaming bubble..and there's no way out.  Cant go anywhere... except the hospital........ I am the worlds worst misery this morning...with a big chunk of angry bird thrown in.  Still got the sciatica giving me hell....... and a sore little toe that really diesnt need to get itself infected...otherwise that will put surgery back. #germolene  ...bucket loads. 

I swear to god I must have been someone really bad in a previous life. 

Rant over.......for now. 

Sorry girls. Needed to vent my spleen.thanks for being here means more than you'll probably ever know.

#allinittogether xxxxxx

You WILL get through this whatsnext, you've made it this far. It's true some people sail through life and others seem to be traipsing through a minefield. I can tell your not a defeatist, pull your big girl pants up, wipe your tears (there will be more, and that's fine, you need to release them) and focus on the hear and now. You can't change anything right now, the wheels are in motion. It may seem like an eternity but it really isn't that far away (11th)  you got this!!

Always here for you 

#inittogether xxxx

Bless you....xxxxx

#allinittogether

Things will all work out. Us women are built to go through anything. We are strong. 
Amd trust me everyone needs to rant. I do it enough. Xxx 

thinking about u and we're all here for u. 
 

xxx

I called hospital today 3 times and managed to get an ultra sound for Friday. So feeling a bit more relaxed atm. (Till Friday when I'll be bricking it) I just hope if it all looks bad I won't have to wait again to get further tests done. 
 

xxxx