Terrified of large breast mass, what did yours feel like?

Hi everyone, I'm just looking for someone going through similar or that has any advice. I'm a 33 mum of four, my youngest is 3. I've always had lumpy breast but very soft and spongy if that makes sense. They flare up bad before my period feeling tender, harder lumps and slightly larger but this time I noticed while in the shower what felt like a large mass of clumped together tissue from round the side under my armpit going across the underside of my boob and I couldn't make out if it's a lump or not. I went to the drs the following day and she agreed that my right was different and said to see what it's like after my period as I was due the following day. My period has been and gone and my left side is back to normal however my right side still feels very clumped together and there is a lump which I find hard to describe as it feels like it's all connected to the tissue almost Ropey. I called back yesterday and the dr tried every excuse not to refer me, saying I could wait and see if it changes, take a pregnancy test and said because I'm young a mammogram wouldn't be ideal but I pushed and she is putting me a referral in. I'm in such a state with it all, I've already convinced myself it's the worse and I can't stop reading everything about lumps! I can't concentrate and I find it hard to look or interact with my kids without feeling devastated. Really would love to know what everyone's lumps felt like, I'm finding it hard to get an idea of what other people's lumps felt like to them 

  • Hi, I hope you get seen and that it turns out to be something simple.  Mine was something I found in the shower, it didnt feel right, sort of hard irregular lump like gristle under the skin, and it made me wince when I touched it, gp described it as exquisitely painful, Id nearly hit him when he examined it. It was described in clock terms as position at 1`1 oclock, so in upper part of breast, Id had to have an implant when I was 18 due to a birth defect in my chest wall, so have never been normal, but I knew it wasnt right, and after two weeks wait I got mammogram and ultrasound, the two doctors at excellent breast clinic thought it suspicious from the scan etc, so offered biopsy, got result 10 days later, it was stage 2 invasive, and because of the implant it was either mastectomy or mastectomy and reconstruction in same op. Not suitable for radiotherapy, oe lunpectormy so I had mastectomy with recon, and am now waiting for further investigations as they put me on aromatase inhibitors to reduce risk of recurrence, and Im having a lot of aches and pains. The waiting is scary, but the treatment options are good and you did absolutley the right thing by getting checked and getting referred I dont know where you live but our local hospital has a specialist breast unit, I went in yesterday to see my surgeon at request of the breast nurse to address some queries, and it was brilliant, hand gel at the entrance, a box of masks to pick from. staff had masks, and aprons, and it all felt very safe, only patients allowed in, others had to wait in car park.  I hope you get some answers soon, never be afraid to ask questions on here, its a mine of supportive information from people who  have been and are going through it.

    all best wishes

  • Hi Annie's sorry you are having to go through this experience . You sound young too and with young children it is very scary I know . I had bowel cancer at 32 and pushed for 18 months to get seen . I had to pay private in the end . I did have cancer and I survived even though they thought I wouldn't x my son was 2.5 years and my daughter 12 and like you are dying now you just can't look at them without that awful feeling . My daughter had cervical cancer at 28 after she had had her baby boy - he was 5 months old and she went they the same . My heart went out to her and I would gladly have gone through it all for her . She is 6 years on now . 3 years ago I had my second mammogram and a tiny lump was detected . You could not see it unless under a microscope. I had it removed and treatment - chemo , etc and am okay . I want you to know that you aren't alone . It all feels so scary doesn't it but honestly the not knowing and the waiting really is the hardest part . You have done exactly to right thing in pushing your gp to look into this for you . It a is also a very brave thing to do . Sending you a big hug x

  • Sorry that was an error (type) - dying / meant to type feeling ! So sorry !!!!!

  • Hi Annie,

    Please try not to worry and take one day at a time and keep busy...the waiting is the hardest part..you have been referred so that's the first step

    The breast clinics are brilliant places..a real one stop shop. Please stay off Dr google they tell you the worst when in fact It could be absolutely nothing...until you know for definate dont stress yourself.

     

    My first trip to the breast clinic was last year lump.in side of breast I had ultrasound and biopsy and after a 6 week wait it came back benign...just age related changes.

    Had trouble with my nipple again over xmas and new year referred back to clinic...this time I was diagnosed with dcis high grade after numerous tests biopsies and scans they found lots of other bits in the bottom of my breast...anyway had a mastectomy 4 weeks ago and it is amazing what they can do now...i had an expander fitted and you honestly wouldnt know I havea 4inch scar and no nipple.

    Got my results from histology on Monday and I am all clear and hadnt spread to my lymph nodes so no more treatment needed.

    I have 3 children 16, 9 and 2 and I know what you mean when you look at them but they are what have got me through.

     

    Look after yourself and any questions please ask 

    Hayley x