Hope your meeting with Onco goes well lovely xx

Hope all goes well xx

Hi hun, got a phone call earlier, got an appointment on Monday 9am to see doctor about radiotherapy....my stomach went over...I know the worst is over but I'm still sensitive with it all....then on my app the histology report came through....OMG that was a read and an half of which some makes no sense to me..but still same outcome I expect. Xxx

Thank you. The consultant said that they are going to reduce the dose of the E part of the EC so they don't obliterate my white blood cells this time.  So fingers crossed this time. When do you start chemo? Xx

Oh hon, how are you feeling now? 
its good they can sort of tinker with the doses to find a balance that our bodies can handle but  its just all a bit scary at the same time isnt it!

I just found out I have my bloods and pre-assesment on the 29th and subject to that going well Ive got my first EC on the 31st! Halloween of all days, Il be in chemo in the morning and trick or treating in the evening now. I worked out the dates and because Im dose dense subject to everything going okay my last session will be early Feb. xxx

Just wanted to tell everyone my mammogram was fine. Nothing of concern. So much cancer in the family it just weighed on my head terribly. My partner has his pet scan next week. Can only hope he gets good news too.

Thinking of you all x

Sorry it's late, hope your feeling OK with all this going on. Thinking of you and Rambleon88 all the time. Xx

 Rambleon88  hiya...well this morning went OK apart from me just randomly breaking down in tears when the car park attendant asked if I was a patient or visitor. I was so overwhelmed with the drive there...anyhow all went well, explained what to expect etc. So I'll have 5 sessions of radiotherapy, one a day over 5 days. If for example it starts on a Wednesday then I get Saturday and Sunday off then just start again on a Monday. Prior to that I'll have a scan to measure me up and the famous tattoo dots a lot have told me about lol. Just a case of waiting for the appointment to come through. Should be anytime soon really. Drove to work after and took my time getting there lol. Hope you're OK xxx

Oh lovely, how are you feeling now? I dont see it as random at all hon, its very justified and understandable you’d feel emotional. Be as kind and lovely to yourself as you are to all of us, you have been through so so much and in the grand scheme all of us have gone/going through it all so very recently. Its all very raw and may be for a while yet. 

Thats great news that your having the 5 sessions hon, it will fly by before you know it and then your out of the active treatment side and on to the road of putting this behind you!! 

Have you looked into the Moving Forward courses? Ive never been one for sharing my feelings or counseling or therapy but have certainly had my fair share of experiences which may have benefited from doing so. Im definitely going to look to do the moving forward course as a way of starting to draw a line under it all as much as is possible.
Im struggling at the moment with not worrying every time I have a ache or pain even though my CT and MRI were clear. Im also mid having my kitchen redone and every room is a state, plus Im smothering with a real sinusy cold at the moment too which isn't helping in the slightest as my house feels like a solid representation of my stressy psyche lol xxx