Hi lovely...How do I feel...you know I don't really know, apprehensive, worried, anxious and trying to run before I can walk with the 'what if's' going on my head...work - what a joke only close colleagues are asking how I am, main directors who are close by, not a single how are you, how you feeling, zero support. Anyhow, awww hun, you're going through so much more and yeah the testing after I totally get....got a letter myself yesterday with all the exercises to do the day after the operation, the do's and don't and when not to shower and when to shower....omg it's too much...but has to be done....then front fastening bra's, I don't have any that front fasten and tops that fasten at the front, again all my tops are over the head type...I'm giggling now...MUM have you got........ **** can't afford a new wardrobe of tops lol....xx

Oh hon, sending big hugs its a really scary time. Your not alone, I go through periods where Im quite matter of fact then moments where Im so anxious I feel sick and just want to  scream. Thats so annoying with work, I cant help but feel directors, managers have a duty of care to check in with you let alone it just being the right and kind thing to do!! Its a bit like that in my work right now, Im just keeping my distance and focusing on one day at a time (or at least trying too!). Im hoping not to have a drain so was reading over the exercises myself today!! Oh I managed to pick up front fastening surgical bras cheap in Primark! Same here on the tops :-D the only ones I have that are front fastening are my scruffy comfy hoodies, or posh work blouses so its my comfy hoodies for me for a while. Check out ebay for breast surgery pillows hon, they arent too expensive and Im not sure if you need them for a lumpectomy but could be handy for when your trying to sleep during recovery I ordered one yesterday xxx

Aww thanks hun, definitely doing one day at a time...hey that's a good idea, I've got a few hoody tops, perfect, thanks hun. Yeah the pillow, I've got one, got it from etsy and been using it in bed and it does make a difference. I'm taking it with me to hospital for the journey home so it can go over the seat belt. It's heart shaped and so comfy xxx

Good luck TM1  hope you are discharged today too and you can go home and rest in peace. Xx

Hi Redruth84, I'm home hun, back home about 7pm..what a long day, I had a lot of tears but I couldn't have asked more from all the nurses, they were fantastic. Well operation...I know it was a few hours ago but better than what I thought. However I woke up and was positive I'd been asleep for two days solid and that it was Sunday, boy did I cry...half hour later back on ward with butty, cup of tea and biscuits. Regular blood pressure checks etc, visit from Surgeon and extra dressing applied and then released lol. Had my daughter and partner with me...bloody pressure socks for 28 days, not keen on that...gave me pain relief to come home with. Already got a one to one rehab appointment sent for Thursday at....8am, omg, will have to change it I think as partner can't take me, don't know if I'll be up to driving then....pain kicking in a bit know....hope you're OK? Xxxx

Hi Rambleon88, I'm home hun, back home about 7pm..what a long day, I had a lot of tears but I couldn't have asked more from all the nurses, they were fantastic. Well operation...I know it was a few hours ago but better than what I thought. However I woke up and was positive I'd been asleep for two days solid and that it was Sunday, boy did I cry...half hour later back on ward with butty, cup of tea and biscuits. Regular blood pressure checks etc, visit from Surgeon and extra dressing applied and then released lol. Had my daughter and partner with me...bloody pressure socks for 28 days, not keen on that...gave me pain relief to come home with. Already got a one to one rehab appointment sent for Thursday at....8am, omg, will have to change it I think as partner can't take me, don't know if I'll be up to driving then....pain kicking in a bit know....hope you're OK? Xxxx

Oh hon sending massive hugs Im so glad it went well!! Ive been thinking of you. Oh bless take it really easy and be kind to yourself. The physical and mental effects of everything we are all going through are brutal but your one huge step towards recovery and having this in your rear view mirror! So glad your daughter and partner were with you. Im starting to really feel the nerves to be honest hon I go from feeling okay to bricking it. Washed all my hospital stuff earlier so I can pack a hospital bag, my surgeon said I should be able to go home same day but want to be prepared. Keep us posted on how your feeling hon, you aren't alone and well done for facing today and coming out the other side of it!! Xxxx

I'm so glad you are home and the op went well.  Yeah the Ted socks aren't great. I wore mine for 2 weeks. They said when I was back to mobilising I could take them off. So I was back to school walks by then so off they came. 

I was told no driving for 4 weeks and it was OK but a bit uncomfortable then still. But see what they say at post op checks. 

I'm OK. Was hoping for news today, but I haven't heard anything. Nor from PALS... that'll be interesting....

Relax and don't push yourself this weekend. Let the family take care of you. Xx

Awww thank you so much sweetheart means an awful lot. Ya know I did what you said, joggers and zip up hoody, and as we were in an admissions lounge when it came to getting ready for action lol I actually didn't need my dressing gown, just my slippers. When I got taken to the ward all my belongings were there waiting for me. Another thing, you'll get asked to confirm your name and address tons of times and date of birth as well as what operation your in for, I actually lost count how many times lol...read a couple of chapters of my book...your gonna get through this to hun.....xxx