Remember you can deal with what you know. Sending strength x

Thank you xxxx

Hi TMI,

You are bound to get more up tight as your operation date draws closer. I was really bricking it on both occasions that I went in for surgery, as I have previously stopped breathing on the operating table. Both operations were very straightforward, although I was kept in hospital for 4 days after my double mastectomy. The staff were really excellent. 

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

How are you feeling today lovely? Hope your doing okay. Its a bloody emotional minefield and totally can relate to it being in waves.

Sometimes Im okay and feel brave others Im just still blindsided this is actually happening. Got a face to face meeting with my surgeon tomorrow to run through what to expect and my mastectomy booked in for the 4th. Xxx

Hi hun, not too bad, I'm finding early evening difficult especially if nothing to watch on TV , that wave comes over me and I'm in tears. I feel a bit awful really as you're going through much more than me, but we all here for the same reason....aww I hope your face to face meeting goes well, get your questions or concerns ready hun.   Week tomorrow is my operation and God knows how ill feel this time next week. I'll be thinking of you hun. Think going to work is helping though as I feel normal if that makes sense and a distraction to....keep telling myself I can do this with my partner by my side and my lovely daughter, both making me smile xxx

Yesterdays appointment went well, signed off on the surgery and all booked in for the 4th. My surgeon isnt big into drains so hoping I wont have one and as Im opting not to have reconstruction the surgery should be shorter. If everything goes well and he can see to me first hes hoping I can go home same day.

My god though had that Magtrace injected yesterday which I didnt realize was happening until I was there. Anyone reading this before having magtrace, it doesn't last very long but it is a bit of a stinger of a injection.  

Hope your enjoying your weekend TM1  Im not sure what to do with my work, whilst Ive been off my boss has been fired so its all very turbulent. Got a feeling with everything going on atm Im better off away from my work! Xxx

Hi hun, been thinking about you and wondered how you got on, all sounds positive then...I had the magseed and that felt different to, sure she went in in a different place but it's rice size seed that goes into the tumour..just been doing house work and kept thinking hmm how will I be this time next Saturday....that's a shock about your boss, blooming eck, think you are better off away from it, you don't need the stress of work as well......I hope the weather improves whilst I'm off work lol...funny weather at the moment....its the thought of an operation that I'm worried about but suppose that's only normal xxx

How are you lovely? Thinking of you. Just think by this weekend you will be the other side of the surgery. 
completely relate to the “how will I be this time next Saturday”.

Ive been finding it so strange that this weekend is my last weekend with both boobs. Its the testing bit after surgery Im starting to dread now. I feel a bit like Im heading back to “after biopsy” territory all over again. X 

Hi lovely...How do I feel...you know I don't really know, apprehensive, worried, anxious and trying to run before I can walk with the 'what if's' going on my head...work - what a joke only close colleagues are asking how I am, main directors who are close by, not a single how are you, how you feeling, zero support. Anyhow, awww hun, you're going through so much more and yeah the testing after I totally get....got a letter myself yesterday with all the exercises to do the day after the operation, the do's and don't and when not to shower and when to shower....omg it's too much...but has to be done....then front fastening bra's, I don't have any that front fasten and tops that fasten at the front, again all my tops are over the head type...I'm giggling now...MUM have you got........ **** can't afford a new wardrobe of tops lol....xx

Oh hon, sending big hugs its a really scary time. Your not alone, I go through periods where Im quite matter of fact then moments where Im so anxious I feel sick and just want to  scream. Thats so annoying with work, I cant help but feel directors, managers have a duty of care to check in with you let alone it just being the right and kind thing to do!! Its a bit like that in my work right now, Im just keeping my distance and focusing on one day at a time (or at least trying too!). Im hoping not to have a drain so was reading over the exercises myself today!! Oh I managed to pick up front fastening surgical bras cheap in Primark! Same here on the tops :-D the only ones I have that are front fastening are my scruffy comfy hoodies, or posh work blouses so its my comfy hoodies for me for a while. Check out ebay for breast surgery pillows hon, they arent too expensive and Im not sure if you need them for a lumpectomy but could be handy for when your trying to sleep during recovery I ordered one yesterday xxx

Aww thanks hun, definitely doing one day at a time...hey that's a good idea, I've got a few hoody tops, perfect, thanks hun. Yeah the pillow, I've got one, got it from etsy and been using it in bed and it does make a difference. I'm taking it with me to hospital for the journey home so it can go over the seat belt. It's heart shaped and so comfy xxx

Good luck today lovely!! Im sure all will go smoothly and by the end of today you will be the other side of surgery and on the road to recovery xxx

Good luck today lovely!! Im sure all will go smoothly and by the end of today you will be the other side of surgery and on the road to recovery xxx

Good luck TM1  hope you are discharged today too and you can go home and rest in peace. Xx

Hi Redruth84, I'm home hun, back home about 7pm..what a long day, I had a lot of tears but I couldn't have asked more from all the nurses, they were fantastic. Well operation...I know it was a few hours ago but better than what I thought. However I woke up and was positive I'd been asleep for two days solid and that it was Sunday, boy did I cry...half hour later back on ward with butty, cup of tea and biscuits. Regular blood pressure checks etc, visit from Surgeon and extra dressing applied and then released lol. Had my daughter and partner with me...bloody pressure socks for 28 days, not keen on that...gave me pain relief to come home with. Already got a one to one rehab appointment sent for Thursday at....8am, omg, will have to change it I think as partner can't take me, don't know if I'll be up to driving then....pain kicking in a bit know....hope you're OK? Xxxx

Hi Rambleon88, I'm home hun, back home about 7pm..what a long day, I had a lot of tears but I couldn't have asked more from all the nurses, they were fantastic. Well operation...I know it was a few hours ago but better than what I thought. However I woke up and was positive I'd been asleep for two days solid and that it was Sunday, boy did I cry...half hour later back on ward with butty, cup of tea and biscuits. Regular blood pressure checks etc, visit from Surgeon and extra dressing applied and then released lol. Had my daughter and partner with me...bloody pressure socks for 28 days, not keen on that...gave me pain relief to come home with. Already got a one to one rehab appointment sent for Thursday at....8am, omg, will have to change it I think as partner can't take me, don't know if I'll be up to driving then....pain kicking in a bit know....hope you're OK? Xxxx

Oh hon sending massive hugs Im so glad it went well!! Ive been thinking of you. Oh bless take it really easy and be kind to yourself. The physical and mental effects of everything we are all going through are brutal but your one huge step towards recovery and having this in your rear view mirror! So glad your daughter and partner were with you. Im starting to really feel the nerves to be honest hon I go from feeling okay to bricking it. Washed all my hospital stuff earlier so I can pack a hospital bag, my surgeon said I should be able to go home same day but want to be prepared. Keep us posted on how your feeling hon, you aren't alone and well done for facing today and coming out the other side of it!! Xxxx

I'm so glad you are home and the op went well.  Yeah the Ted socks aren't great. I wore mine for 2 weeks. They said when I was back to mobilising I could take them off. So I was back to school walks by then so off they came. 

I was told no driving for 4 weeks and it was OK but a bit uncomfortable then still. But see what they say at post op checks. 

I'm OK. Was hoping for news today, but I haven't heard anything. Nor from PALS... that'll be interesting....

Relax and don't push yourself this weekend. Let the family take care of you. Xx

Awww thank you so much sweetheart means an awful lot. Ya know I did what you said, joggers and zip up hoody, and as we were in an admissions lounge when it came to getting ready for action lol I actually didn't need my dressing gown, just my slippers. When I got taken to the ward all my belongings were there waiting for me. Another thing, you'll get asked to confirm your name and address tons of times and date of birth as well as what operation your in for, I actually lost count how many times lol...read a couple of chapters of my book...your gonna get through this to hun.....xxx

Thank you, again means so much and fully appreciate it...not a lovely look are they lol, under joggers it will have to be...definitely rest just do exercises they have given me..xxx

So glad the zip up hoodies worked out well for you! Ive got mine drying on the line now ready to go into my hospital bag just encase I end up having to stay over night (Hope I dont though!). How are you feeling this morning lovely? Hope your okay xxx

Morning Rambleon88 RedRuth84erll well I slept OK, on my right side with our new pillow under my left arm. Done my first lot of exercises to, felt pulling sensation at times and tad uncomfortable. I do have to be careful though. Got to remember deep breaths every hour as well, keep lungs clear. Still in my dressing gown lol...I was very emotional last night but my neighbour who's a nurse said that was normal after an operation...think it's a sink wash and hair up day today. Both of you have a nice weekend and without being on here I don't think I'd of got through the same...thank you ladies xxxx

Morning hun, message below sweet xxx