Hi K86

Mine also feels like a pea as I can't leave it alone. My is kind of where the breast starts from my chest.

I know when I had to have a growth removed from my cervix last year, they said I'd get results over the phone, but my friend had to go in for hers, so bit confusing isn't it really. I wouldn't read into it, if you do have to go in for the results, a I know people who have been asked to go in for results and got good news.

How are you coping with the wait? I feel really alone, even though I have people around me, so I know that sounds silly x

Hi

I just wanted to say you are not alone in feeling so anxious. It's so overwhelming isn't it!

My situation is a bit different.- I was treated for breast cancer 8 years ago and have had 5 clear mammograms since then. I had my last mammogram  on Tuesday, and as it's the first one for 3 years I have convinced myself this time that the cancer has returned ( I was told I had quite a high ridk of recurrence).

I can identify so much with not being able to plan anything, and I find myself waking up in a state of panic at 3am every morning.. The thought of bring recalled terrifies me, and I panic every time the post arrives! I was told results should arrive within 2 weeks but getting through each day is such a struggle. I think it's the not knowing that is the worst part!

I do hope everything works out for you. I probably haven't been much help,  but just wanted to say I understand exactly how you feel and to wish you luck.

Jxx

Thanks so much for replying - I will try very hard to be strong! I've already told my partner that he has to open the letter when it arrives though:)

On the positive side I've actually had a really healthy 8 years since my treatment, and tolerated Anastrozole ok. Since my mammogram I've just got it in my head that it's about to start all over again!! It's seems a shame that after 5 years you go back to the normal 3 yearly screening. 

I do hope you get some sleep tonight - and a big hug to you too.

Jxx

Hey; thanks for taking the time to message. 
my appointment is today at 9.40. 
I hardly slept last night. Yesterday I thought I could hardly feel the lump/hard bit. Today it feels bigger than ever. 
i just have a feeling it's going to be bad news, I just feel it. You know that sense of impending doom. 
i hope your appointment goes well, that's not long to wait now. What was your lumps the last 5 times? 
xx

Hey, thanks for replying. If they thought it was a good sign why do a biopsy? I thought biopsy's was to confirm something sinister? Apologies if I haven't got that right. 
mine is like a hard slab with a lump on top like wiggly rope if that makes sense.  

Oh gosh bless you, that's good that the mammograms have been clear since. Have you reason for concern this time? 
i hardly slept last night I've been prodding it in the night and this morning and it feels bigger even though yesterday I felt it was smaller. 
I just feel like there's this sense of impending doom coming. I've only told my sister and partner, my good friend is coming along today but she has had breast cancer 2 years ago so is understanding how I feel. 
it's just the not knowing I can not stand, I'm a planner, a do-er. This limbo isn't working for me! 

Very best of luck today. And I'm so glad you have someone to hold your hand.
I do think sometimes we fear the worse to protect ourselves. I haven't got a specific reason for being so scared this time - as you say it's just that horrible feeling of impending doom!
Being in limbo is awful - and it's amazing what we can cope with when we have to and have a plan.

Everything crossed for you - and let us know how you get on.

Jxx

Hi Casey123

Hope you managed some sleep last night. I just noticed your appointment is on 15th so not too long to go - I know how long the next few days will seem though.

I'm already listening for the post, stomach churning and feeling sick. I don't go into work until Wednesday - at least when I'm there I have to think about other things ( well at least part of the time!! I have some really supportive colleagues too who get what I'm going through. 
I think I'm the same as you - I'm worrying so much how a new diagnosis would affect my family, especially my grown up children whose dad ( my ex husband) has terminal brain cancer. 

Its the waiting that is unbearable though - one minute I want to know and then I don't!! I'm sure you are the same. 
 

I'll be thinking of you this week and do let us know how you get on. I won't say don't worry, but just hope it all works out ok for you. 

Jxx

I've just got back - all was well. Fibrocystic changes due to hormones. Thank god. But the mammogram was a bit hairy, I had to go back and have more images done as the lady said they'd found a large mass, well I nearly vomited on the spot. But then when I went to the ultra sound the radiologist said it was all jsut Fibrocystic changes and there was absolutely no sign of any tumours benign or otherwise. 
 

thank you all for being here for me and chatting when I was at a low point. I hope everyone else has a good outcome, please keep the thread updated as we're all here for you xx