Hi, I absolutely know how your feeling it is frightening when you feel a lump. You definitely do need to phone the doctors in the morning even if it turns out to be nothing it will put your mind at ease.

Hope everything goes well for you, Good luck and best wishes 

Thank you for replying. 
I've made it sore now and it's swollen a bit as I keep prodding and poking it about. 
Im googling everything I can and I know it's not helping but I can't help it I feel like I need to know what I'm going into? 
i just have a bad feeling about it all!!! 
 

I read that cysts look RADICALLY different to cancer on an ultrasound and are therefore very easy to diagnose. But the problem here is your anxiety (I have health anxiety too).. please do not research this any more. There is no value in that. Accept that right now, you do not know what these lumps are, and trust that the professionals have the tools to find out. You are not qualified to diagnose yourself. Also remind yourself regularly of the facts- most breast lumps are benign. Most importantly, STOP TOUCHING THEM. You are prolonging the anxiety cycle. Every time you touch them, you're inviting more intrusive thoughts. 
good luck with your scan and try and put your energy into managing your anxiety rather than trying to diagnose yourself xx

I feel that I can't get past this, every thought of every waking minute is do I have cancer I have cancer I know I do stop being ridiculous you don't know anything it's a cyst but what if it isn't we won't be able to go on holiday in October I'll ruin everything i can't book anything I can't get excited about anything my first thought when the queen died was well what if it's me next. 
 

i can't help it I look at my kids and think I need to plan for their birthdays like cards etc xmases leave notes for my partner so he knows what to do. 
I don't know how to manage this anxiety it has taken over me like something else. I've never ever been like this before even when I had an abnormal smear this is next level I think because I know deep down this is going to be it for me. 

I've stopped prodding it now yt doesn't hurt which I'm worried about. And I don't know if it's grown? And my shoulder hurts I've read about referred pain in breast cancer? 

I'm really sorry to see how much of an impact your anxiety is having at the moment Scaredtosleep99.

When anxiety feels constant or overwhelming it can be very difficult to manage. If you feel like your anxiety has got to that point, please let your GP know as they will be able to help and possibly provide you with something that will help calm you and get this under control.

I hope the posts you've been receiving from the community have been helping as well but if you feel you need further support and advice do be sure to have a look at the tips given on the NHS Every Mind Matters website and the resources provided on Anxiety UK.

We're thinking of you ScaredtoSleep99 and hope everything will be o.k.

Kind regards,

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Thank you, you probably think I sound like an utter nutter i promise you I'm not! I don't know where this has come from i have health anxiety but never anything like this. I'm usually a rational person but this I don't know it's just taken over my life since Sunday when I found the lump. I phoned the breast clinic and told them about my anxiety and worries and she said basically you'll have to wait which is fine but she said if it's bad news it won't make a difference anyway! I said what have I said to make you think it'll be bad news!!  She said its nothing they can do it'll be looked at and assessed Monday and go from there but she really made me panic, will the GP have told them anything on the referral letter like a heads up oh I think this or I think that? 
 

My stomach is in knots I've just had another feel and I'm sure there's more lumps 

Hi scaredtosleep,

I've just been reading your posts and I feel exactly like you. I have health anxiety since losing a close family member and at the min, I am beyound terrified. 
I can't sleep, eat, I cry all day and feel sick. How the heck I am going to get through work tomorrow, I have absolutely no idea. I'm desperate even for a couple of hours sleep. I literally had about an hours sleep since Friday and I lay awake thinking the worst and putting my family through another loss and grief. 
my app at the breast clinic is on rhe 15th what about yours? I have a lump, as well as swelling  and pain under arm pit and I am expecting the worst. This is my second lump and got good news with the first. Also this is 5 scare which involves a 2 week referral to rule Out cancer, in 2 years. I got good news on all 5 and feel like l luck will run out. I just feel physically ill waiting for news/appointments and it's taking over my life. I just wanted to share how I felt to let you know you are not alone. Sending love x

Hi  

Big hugs mine sounds so similar I have a small lump left breast mine feels like a pea.

I had an ultrasound and biopsy Friday they said it was 15mm and on screen just looked black. They think it's very round she said good sign. 

Just waiting on results now so hard not sure if they call or go back you almost forgot to ask things. 

Good luck with yours definitely ring doctor.

X

Hi K86

Mine also feels like a pea as I can't leave it alone. My is kind of where the breast starts from my chest.

I know when I had to have a growth removed from my cervix last year, they said I'd get results over the phone, but my friend had to go in for hers, so bit confusing isn't it really. I wouldn't read into it, if you do have to go in for the results, a I know people who have been asked to go in for results and got good news.

How are you coping with the wait? I feel really alone, even though I have people around me, so I know that sounds silly x

Hi

I just wanted to say you are not alone in feeling so anxious. It's so overwhelming isn't it!

My situation is a bit different.- I was treated for breast cancer 8 years ago and have had 5 clear mammograms since then. I had my last mammogram  on Tuesday, and as it's the first one for 3 years I have convinced myself this time that the cancer has returned ( I was told I had quite a high ridk of recurrence).

I can identify so much with not being able to plan anything, and I find myself waking up in a state of panic at 3am every morning.. The thought of bring recalled terrifies me, and I panic every time the post arrives! I was told results should arrive within 2 weeks but getting through each day is such a struggle. I think it's the not knowing that is the worst part!

I do hope everything works out for you. I probably haven't been much help,  but just wanted to say I understand exactly how you feel and to wish you luck.

Jxx

Hi

I just wanted to say you are not alone in feeling so anxious. It's so overwhelming isn't it!

My situation is a bit different.- I was treated for breast cancer 8 years ago and have had 5 clear mammograms since then. I had my last mammogram  on Tuesday, and as it's the first one for 3 years I have convinced myself this time that the cancer has returned ( I was told I had quite a high ridk of recurrence).

I can identify so much with not being able to plan anything, and I find myself waking up in a state of panic at 3am every morning.. The thought of bring recalled terrifies me, and I panic every time the post arrives! I was told results should arrive within 2 weeks but getting through each day is such a struggle. I think it's the not knowing that is the worst part!

I do hope everything works out for you. I probably haven't been much help,  but just wanted to say I understand exactly how you feel and to wish you luck.

Jxx

I am so sorry to hear of your previous diagnosis, it's so sad that so many of us are affected by this terrible disease. 
I know it's so hard waiting for results, but I have a friend who has remained cancer free for many years, not that it ever takes away the fear, I imagine. So try and not think of the worst and keep busy. I know it's so hard.

Sending a big hug. I'm desperate for some sleep tonight x

Thanks so much for replying - I will try very hard to be strong! I've already told my partner that he has to open the letter when it arrives though:)

On the positive side I've actually had a really healthy 8 years since my treatment, and tolerated Anastrozole ok. Since my mammogram I've just got it in my head that it's about to start all over again!! It's seems a shame that after 5 years you go back to the normal 3 yearly screening. 

I do hope you get some sleep tonight - and a big hug to you too.

Jxx

Oh gosh bless you, that's good that the mammograms have been clear since. Have you reason for concern this time? 
i hardly slept last night I've been prodding it in the night and this morning and it feels bigger even though yesterday I felt it was smaller. 
I just feel like there's this sense of impending doom coming. I've only told my sister and partner, my good friend is coming along today but she has had breast cancer 2 years ago so is understanding how I feel. 
it's just the not knowing I can not stand, I'm a planner, a do-er. This limbo isn't working for me! 

Very best of luck today. And I'm so glad you have someone to hold your hand.
I do think sometimes we fear the worse to protect ourselves. I haven't got a specific reason for being so scared this time - as you say it's just that horrible feeling of impending doom!
Being in limbo is awful - and it's amazing what we can cope with when we have to and have a plan.

Everything crossed for you - and let us know how you get on.

Jxx

I've just got back - all was well. Fibrocystic changes due to hormones. Thank god. But the mammogram was a bit hairy, I had to go back and have more images done as the lady said they'd found a large mass, well I nearly vomited on the spot. But then when I went to the ultra sound the radiologist said it was all jsut Fibrocystic changes and there was absolutely no sign of any tumours benign or otherwise. 
 

thank you all for being here for me and chatting when I was at a low point. I hope everyone else has a good outcome, please keep the thread updated as we're all here for you xx

Hi

I'm so happy for you - I bet you floated out of there!! Time to celebrate - and sleep - now!!

I just called up Breast Screening to see how long results are taking - she said 21 - 28 days at the moment!! I feel a bit more positive after hearing about your experience. Even if I get called back I mustn't assume things will be the same as before.

Have a lovely day - and thanks for your support.

Jxx

That's ages! What part of the country are you in? 
I swear I had myself in knots and for what! But it could have been a worse outcome and for a while I thought it was but thankfully not. 
i hope you hear something soon, that is a long while for you to wait, it doesn't do anyone any good does it :( 

xxxx

So releived for you! Amazing news it's nothing to worry about. You must of been scared stiff when they mentioned the mass on the mammogram:( how awful. I hope you're ok and feeling better x

So sorry you have to wait all that time for results Jal55. We will be thinking of you. Waiting is the absolute worst feeling isn't it.

I'm really struggling at work today and just want to cry :( x

Is it worth keeping ringing them, to see if you can maybe get rhem sooner? It's just awful isn't it. There is so escape from the fear and anxiety . Please message me anytime if you need anything xx