Hi, I absolutely know how your feeling it is frightening when you feel a lump. You definitely do need to phone the doctors in the morning even if it turns out to be nothing it will put your mind at ease.

Hope everything goes well for you, Good luck and best wishes 

Thank you for replying. 
I've made it sore now and it's swollen a bit as I keep prodding and poking it about. 
Im googling everything I can and I know it's not helping but I can't help it I feel like I need to know what I'm going into? 
i just have a bad feeling about it all!!! 
 

My stomach is in knots I've just had another feel and I'm sure there's more lumps 

Hi scaredtosleep,

I've just been reading your posts and I feel exactly like you. I have health anxiety since losing a close family member and at the min, I am beyound terrified. 
I can't sleep, eat, I cry all day and feel sick. How the heck I am going to get through work tomorrow, I have absolutely no idea. I'm desperate even for a couple of hours sleep. I literally had about an hours sleep since Friday and I lay awake thinking the worst and putting my family through another loss and grief. 
my app at the breast clinic is on rhe 15th what about yours? I have a lump, as well as swelling  and pain under arm pit and I am expecting the worst. This is my second lump and got good news with the first. Also this is 5 scare which involves a 2 week referral to rule Out cancer, in 2 years. I got good news on all 5 and feel like l luck will run out. I just feel physically ill waiting for news/appointments and it's taking over my life. I just wanted to share how I felt to let you know you are not alone. Sending love x

Hi  

Big hugs mine sounds so similar I have a small lump left breast mine feels like a pea.

I had an ultrasound and biopsy Friday they said it was 15mm and on screen just looked black. They think it's very round she said good sign. 

Just waiting on results now so hard not sure if they call or go back you almost forgot to ask things. 

Good luck with yours definitely ring doctor.

X

Hi K86

Mine also feels like a pea as I can't leave it alone. My is kind of where the breast starts from my chest.

I know when I had to have a growth removed from my cervix last year, they said I'd get results over the phone, but my friend had to go in for hers, so bit confusing isn't it really. I wouldn't read into it, if you do have to go in for the results, a I know people who have been asked to go in for results and got good news.

How are you coping with the wait? I feel really alone, even though I have people around me, so I know that sounds silly x

Hi

I just wanted to say you are not alone in feeling so anxious. It's so overwhelming isn't it!

My situation is a bit different.- I was treated for breast cancer 8 years ago and have had 5 clear mammograms since then. I had my last mammogram  on Tuesday, and as it's the first one for 3 years I have convinced myself this time that the cancer has returned ( I was told I had quite a high ridk of recurrence).

I can identify so much with not being able to plan anything, and I find myself waking up in a state of panic at 3am every morning.. The thought of bring recalled terrifies me, and I panic every time the post arrives! I was told results should arrive within 2 weeks but getting through each day is such a struggle. I think it's the not knowing that is the worst part!

I do hope everything works out for you. I probably haven't been much help,  but just wanted to say I understand exactly how you feel and to wish you luck.

Jxx

I am so sorry to hear of your previous diagnosis, it's so sad that so many of us are affected by this terrible disease. 
I know it's so hard waiting for results, but I have a friend who has remained cancer free for many years, not that it ever takes away the fear, I imagine. So try and not think of the worst and keep busy. I know it's so hard.

Sending a big hug. I'm desperate for some sleep tonight x

Thanks so much for replying - I will try very hard to be strong! I've already told my partner that he has to open the letter when it arrives though:)

On the positive side I've actually had a really healthy 8 years since my treatment, and tolerated Anastrozole ok. Since my mammogram I've just got it in my head that it's about to start all over again!! It's seems a shame that after 5 years you go back to the normal 3 yearly screening. 

I do hope you get some sleep tonight - and a big hug to you too.

Jxx

Hey; thanks for taking the time to message. 
my appointment is today at 9.40. 
I hardly slept last night. Yesterday I thought I could hardly feel the lump/hard bit. Today it feels bigger than ever. 
i just have a feeling it's going to be bad news, I just feel it. You know that sense of impending doom. 
i hope your appointment goes well, that's not long to wait now. What was your lumps the last 5 times? 
xx

Hey, thanks for replying. If they thought it was a good sign why do a biopsy? I thought biopsy's was to confirm something sinister? Apologies if I haven't got that right. 
mine is like a hard slab with a lump on top like wiggly rope if that makes sense.  

Oh gosh bless you, that's good that the mammograms have been clear since. Have you reason for concern this time? 
i hardly slept last night I've been prodding it in the night and this morning and it feels bigger even though yesterday I felt it was smaller. 
I just feel like there's this sense of impending doom coming. I've only told my sister and partner, my good friend is coming along today but she has had breast cancer 2 years ago so is understanding how I feel. 
it's just the not knowing I can not stand, I'm a planner, a do-er. This limbo isn't working for me! 

Oh gosh bless you, that's good that the mammograms have been clear since. Have you reason for concern this time? 
i hardly slept last night I've been prodding it in the night and this morning and it feels bigger even though yesterday I felt it was smaller. 
I just feel like there's this sense of impending doom coming. I've only told my sister and partner, my good friend is coming along today but she has had breast cancer 2 years ago so is understanding how I feel. 
it's just the not knowing I can not stand, I'm a planner, a do-er. This limbo isn't working for me! 

Very best of luck today. And I'm so glad you have someone to hold your hand.
I do think sometimes we fear the worse to protect ourselves. I haven't got a specific reason for being so scared this time - as you say it's just that horrible feeling of impending doom!
Being in limbo is awful - and it's amazing what we can cope with when we have to and have a plan.

Everything crossed for you - and let us know how you get on.

Jxx

I've just got back - all was well. Fibrocystic changes due to hormones. Thank god. But the mammogram was a bit hairy, I had to go back and have more images done as the lady said they'd found a large mass, well I nearly vomited on the spot. But then when I went to the ultra sound the radiologist said it was all jsut Fibrocystic changes and there was absolutely no sign of any tumours benign or otherwise. 
 

thank you all for being here for me and chatting when I was at a low point. I hope everyone else has a good outcome, please keep the thread updated as we're all here for you xx

Hi

I'm so happy for you - I bet you floated out of there!! Time to celebrate - and sleep - now!!

I just called up Breast Screening to see how long results are taking - she said 21 - 28 days at the moment!! I feel a bit more positive after hearing about your experience. Even if I get called back I mustn't assume things will be the same as before.

Have a lovely day - and thanks for your support.

Jxx

That's ages! What part of the country are you in? 
I swear I had myself in knots and for what! But it could have been a worse outcome and for a while I thought it was but thankfully not. 
i hope you hear something soon, that is a long while for you to wait, it doesn't do anyone any good does it :( 

xxxx

So releived for you! Amazing news it's nothing to worry about. You must of been scared stiff when they mentioned the mass on the mammogram:( how awful. I hope you're ok and feeling better x

So sorry you have to wait all that time for results Jal55. We will be thinking of you. Waiting is the absolute worst feeling isn't it.

I'm really struggling at work today and just want to cry :( x

Is it worth keeping ringing them, to see if you can maybe get rhem sooner? It's just awful isn't it. There is so escape from the fear and anxiety . Please message me anytime if you need anything xx

Thanks so much for caring - and I sorry that you are finding it so overwhelming. It doesn't take much to set me off either!! 
 

Jxx

Hi Casey123

Just to say I will be thinking of you this afternoon - everything crossed for you . Hope the last few days have been manageable. I'm still waiting and have had several wobbles!! 

J xx

Thanks so much [@Jal55]‍ 

Well rhey didn't do a mammogram as I had one not long ago, but they did a ultrasound and said they are happy it's just lumpy breast tissue.

I did have a wobble when I got home though, and I rang the clinic back, as I noticed the circle rhey drew on my for the scan wasn't actually over the lump. The lump was prob a cm from the edge of the lump, so I panicked rhey hadn't looked properly. But on the phone rhey we're adamant I didn't need to go back and it was fine....so I just need to trust them I think and move on.

i know I'm very lucky. Please message me when you gdy your results, I'll be thinking of you xx