I was told yesterday that I've got cancer.  I've been unwell since November 2020 and guessed it was going to be bad news as my PET scan showed pathological changes in my lymph nodes and two shadows had appeared on my lungs.  I had a biopsy and suddenly I've got secondary lung cancer but they can't find the primary tumour.  I'm having an endoscopy as they suspect upper GI.  This all came as a shock as I was told possibly lymphoma and now I'm being told it's very aggressive and they think the treatment will not be curative.  I'm so freaked out.  I've gone from being a healthy (going to gym or swimming every day) woman to someone who can't climb a flight of stairs.  I have three young sons and I'm so sad for them and have spent all night worrying about them.  What does non curative mean - is it terminal, is there a time line? I'm scared to ask that question but equally scared to ignore it. I feel like there were no positives in the news, no chinks of light.  Has anyone else been told something similar?  Thank you