Hello Agnesw
We know that waiting for tests and results can be a really difficult time. It can be hard to stay positive in the face of the unknown but hopefully within the near future you'll have answers to all your questions. 
If you'd like to talk things through with one of our nurses then please do give them a call. They're available on 0808 800 4040, Monday to Friday 9am to 5pm. 

Best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator

Hi Agnesw.

I had a small bladder cancer removed last June, about 9 years after I had my prostate removed for prostate cancer.

What you're going through is perfectly normal.  I felt exactly the same.  I was so keyed up when I had my first follow up cystoscopy that I couldn't look at the screen, and I took the doctor's word that all was well.  No doubt I'll feel equally keyed up at my subsequent cystoscopies, too.  

I'm afraid this is the lot of the cancer survivor.  But after a while it stops preying on your mind constantly, and it's only when a test is immediately due that you start to worry about it.  With my prostate cancer, I used to tell myself that when I'd been clear for 5 years I'd stop worrying about follow up blood tests.  It's now nearly 10 years, and I had a PSA blood test two weeks ago - I worried about it, but not as much I did immediately after treatment. 

What can I say?  It does get better, but it never entirely leaves you. 

Thanks

Its reassuring to hear from you.  I may be replying a second time as I don't know if my original one registered!  Ah technology...

But I appreciate it 

A