Hello shades, I completely understand where your coming from ......I'm currently halfway through fec chemo for breast cancer, I thought the bottom of my world had fallen out...me? Cancer? Chemo? No way!! It's all a whirlwind and very scary....BUT....what I can tell you is that it all settles down, your in the first stages of panic and what ifs and buts.....

I had a lumpectomy and now chemo flush....while chemo is no walk in the park life can and does go on during it....I promise you! 

They want to keep you well during chemo and will be keeping an eye on you...doses can be tweaked and the first cycle is always the scariest, once it's under your belt I promise you ..you will crack on with it and be ticking them off...

im always popping in and out of the forum....and here if you need to chat xxx

Hi, I hope and pray your CT scan is clear

but yes biggest problem is our brains and keeping a good front infront of family, it is truley terrifying and exhausting.

I have young family son 12 daughter 8. Im a radiographer and work in very department i was diagnosed in. i only posted first time this week too. Big mass I could see in my reflection and embarrassed not noticed it sooner. Diagnosed January 10th, stage 2b invasive er+pr+her2- 36mm by 30mm with second tumour growing. Sentinel node positive, Mastectomy 30th Jan, no reconstruction at moment as radiotherapy to chest wall. I was told id have all treatment and accepted that including the chemo, but they then did the oncodx and said score was 10  low so would likley not benefit from chemo, but i wanted it anyway to fight all cells as I'm 45 youngish and fit. But oncologist said no, I'm still struggling with lack of control over myself and their decisions . Ctl scan clear after cysts found in liver but ok, but looks like a bone staging scan was missed so waiting to hear if needed. Started radiotherapy this week, and my son came to see the machine. I'm having counselling from mid may when I start tamoxifen again reacted badley few weeks ago when i tried it.. I'm teary a lot alone when I walk dog on beach.  I'll be thinking positive thoughts for you. Xxx

Hi how are you doing? did they offer nuclear staging bone scan? I'm waiting for my results been over a week, the waiting is horrendous.  Hope your feeling ok. Xx ruthie

Hi Ruthie,

My bones came back clear thank goodness and I start my chemo this Wednesday. Waiting for results is the worst part of this horrific process. Wishing you clear results and positive thoughts xx