Hi Smiler,

I am so sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I'm not surprized that you are not coping too well when you are tryng to go through this on your own. You really need someone who you can confide in and discuss your innermost fears with.

Has your oncologist arranged for you to have a bone scan to check whether or not it has spread to your bones? I hope that your results on 31st are better than you are expecting and that your chemo goes well.

Do please keep in touch and let us know how you are getting on. We are always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Oh my, you simply mustn't try and do this on your own, now more than ever you need good support around you. Do you have people around you? Family! I think you may find they will be cross you kept quiet.....tell someone soon....I urge you....you will have masses of support on here too.....please? Xxx

Hey Smiler. Sorry to hear of your diagnosis. But you are on the radar now and will be treated. That's is the most reassuring thing. It's very hard to come to terms with and is a tough old journey but you'll get through.

This forum is and was my saviour and do remember one thing - we all react differently to every step of this process. Hang in there and best thing I did was to totally avoid Google, write down questions as and when I thought of them and asked my medical team at appts. I felt more in control the more I knew.

Tell someone - perhaps outside the family whom you can trust. Or the other option is tell family and also tell them you need them to now make xmas enjoyable and that you will be ok. I was also diagnosed dec 28 2016 so can understand what you're saying. I only told my hubby and kids and my sister's due to the genetic risk.  The more you talk about it the less scary it is and helps to come to terms with it but it's totally up to you how you want to do this. I didn't seĺl rest if family until I was well into treatment as I needed the help with house stuff then. 

You got This! Keep us posted please and try to enjoy xmas.x