Hi all

I'm beyond myself this morning. I have my bone scan at 11 and the consultant has asked to see me this afternoon at 3. I'm terrified she has more bad news for me. 

Xxxxx

Hi Luna,

Try to keep calm. I know it is difficult. 

Take it an hour at a time.

3pm will be here quickly and you will know what you are up against. It may be good news and they want to give you a good Christmas. Think positive.

Let us know how you get on - we are all here for you 

xx

Luna......of course they want to see you later, they will want to tell you your results...whatever the results are take heed that everything is being done in your best interest. We get so wrapped up in the word "cancer" that we tend to forget (well I do) that there is good successful treatment out there that its main purpose is to get us better......keep posting and dip in later to let us know what they say? We have this.....all of us do! Xxxxx

Dear Cara - we're all (vitually) with you to support you - sending loads of love.

Thanks everyone who has been with me this week. Its been a nightmare of a week. I have been told that it hasn't spread and has been contained by my lymph nodes. Thank you for doing a good job my swollen little nodes! 

Thank you all for all your positivity. I've got 6 months of chemo first but at least I have some hope now. 

I'm planning on snuggling down with my boys and watching Christmas films all weekend. 

Sending lots of love to all you strong, brave, wonderful women out there. 

Xxxxx

Hi - thats just brilliant news - so glad you found out where you stand before Christmas - you know what you're up against now - and it's very treatable.

You snuggle down with your little boy and get ready for a great Christmas - I've just watched Arthur Christmas - it's really cute - your little boy would love it. 

You've 'got this' - and we're all still here if ever you have a wobble (whch you most probably will at some point) or just need a word or two of reassurance or a virtual hug.

Love

Helen

xxx

Thanks for your words LunaMuna,

In some ways having lived with it in the family for so long makes it easier I think (given that we saw my mum get well again).  It is funny though because up until my 30s my depression was really severe and from 30 onwards it has very gradually improved, give or take a few setbacks.  So now I want to live but have cancer.  But wanting to live still makes you enjoy life whether you have a long time or not so I guess it works for us regardless.

Really sorry you've been let down by the system.  We're not NHS here (in Jersey) although it is very much an NHS-style system.  Still we pay to see a GP (£42 per appointment) and I think somehow that does lead GPs to take things a bit more seriously, and I say that despite the failure to refer me for early screening over the last 5 years.  Sometimes GPs do make mistakes, but other times they just gp with the statistics and when you are the 'odd-one-out' going with the statistics works against you sadly.

It's funny you admiring my positivity, as reading this thread you're already helping other newer members of the forum :)

Best wishes,

LJx

That's fantastic news, so pleased for you and your family.

So get yourself off to enjoy a lovely Christmas and New Year and then give us a shout if you want anyone's experience of chemo etc.  Meanwhile, it is a good idea to do the moisturising twice a day and looking after your dental hygiene more than usual.  The sooner you start it the better a position you're in for chemo.  Just think of it as pampering yourself rather than preparing for chemo though, makes it seem much more fun :)

LJxx

Hi Dragonfly,

Sorry that you were also let down.  I don't blame my GPs, current NHS thinking is what informed their lack of referring me for early screening so they weren't 'wrong' as such, just unfortunate that I wasn't just carrying a gene but already had cancer young.  My lump wasn't the same as yours but nor could it be felt.  Even at 6cm my GP couldn't feel anything.  Sadly both our situations do happen, not all lumps can be felt.

How do you feel about the mastectomy?  I know so many people now (including me) for whom it just went so smoothly, really hope you join our 'club'.

Sorry too that your mum is ill :cry:  Hope she gets out before Christmas and is able to have a lovely Christmas with you all.

Mine is still ER+ so I'm on Tamoxifen for the next 10 years.  Don't know what they do after that.  My post-op HER2 results haven't come through but they were -ve before and they rarely go from -ve to +ve.  My PR did change from +ve to -ve though so that's a blessing for sure as there isn't anything they can give for the progesterone.

Better head just now, but keeping you all in my thoughts and hoping you get to enjoy Christmas.

LJx