I’m sorry to hear about your diagnosis and wish you well, I was diagnosed in April with grade 3 breast cancer that had spread to my lymph nodes, it was a huge shock as had no lump or anything. I have found being open and honest about everything has helped me plus humour. It’s a terrifying situation but finding it is better than not. Xx

Hi it’s all the waiting and tests so nerve wracking because my imagination runs wild and I try to talk myself calm but dosnt work for long the stories I am reading on here have really helped to know there are others going threw the same I’m so glad I found this .

The waiting is by far the worst of it all, overthinking everything. This has really helped me too as sometimes it’s hard to get friends/family to really understand. Xx

I honestly feel your pain im also waiting on further tests ,now awaiting a MRI and everyday I feel so sick my mind takes over especially with the famliy when we laugh and joke just for a second and en BAM reality kicks back in thinking about my furture and if I'll be here to enjoy seeing my children grow ,im sending EVERYONE on here and out there thats going through anything like this a massiv hug and reminding you all your so strong and super special

I know exactly what you mean. We got away over half term with my best friend and her family including a child the same age as my eldest. It was lovely to have tines where I didnt think about it but then as you say bang! You are right back where you were. 

I've got to tell my 5 and 6 year olds what is happening next weekend (they are currently totally unaware) before I go into hospital to have my surgery. I'm just hoping for good news after that (but that will be 4-5 weeks of utter he'll waiting for the post surgery pathology results). 

Big hugs to everyone here. Stay strong! X

Thank you for your reply it helps me sooo much not feeling ,im ment be going on hoiliday end July kids are soo excited they evan have count down going , I don't evan know if I will be going or if anyone will and that breaks my heart on top all this especially as we could do with this holiday massively now ! I know im only awaiting my MRI but this is a feeling of not knowing anything and feeling the worse ,I hope you had a lovely time away to the best you could and I really do feel for you having to speak with your little darlings I don't evan know how or where I'd start thats all come into my head many times to ,im sending you lots postive vibes and energy.... 

My liver MRI results (fortunately just cysts found) were back within 2 weeks so I hope that you get some answers and a plan in place. Having a plan had helped to calm my worries.  The waiting and wondering is the absolute worst. 

I hope you do get away in July. A break does everyone good.   I'll keep everything crossed for you.  X

Hi I hope you get to go you could change the appointment I also had a holiday booked but I didn’t go because I had an appointment with the oncologist although the nurse said I could have gone and had a telephone appointment but on hearing the mri results I’m glad I didn’t because it just threw me right back again so now I wait for Wednesday for ultra.sound and another biopsy x

Thank you so much I really hope it could be anything other then the worse everyone keeps saying prepare yourself for the worse ....how do we actually do this ?? Lol ....thank you I hope I do to we all need it so much xx

I think just where my heads at im expecting the worse so there for it would effect the holiday all round BUT I say this and I'm actually trying my best to keep my chin up this site has really helped me loads thank u to all xx

When I found the lump I thought the worst. Didn't help the drs kept saying yes that's a big lump.  Then originally the Dr's said its likely begnin. So I felt more relieved. Then the ultrasound and biopsy came. I was told we don't know what it is. But I still remained positive but worried until my week later results appointment was cancelled as the results weren't back. I then told myself it was cancer. 2 days later I was told it was cancer but lymph nodes seem to be clear and it's grade 1. So remaining positive is the only way I can be now to be able to cope. 

My friend told me about a psychology study where they found picturing prihanas eating the cancer away had a physical effect! So I tried that which helped psychologically.  

Now i'm trying to remain positive. Thinking the worst and preparing for the worst isn't good for me. I'm telling myself I've already had the bad news and hopefully anything else will be positive.  First part it's I'm not in for a full mastectomy (I thought i wouldn'thave a choice!). I've been offered a lumpectomy and partial reconstruction (followed by radiotherapy) as its too close to the skin, my lymph nodes appear normal on scans and the lumps on my liver are begnin. 

This site has really helped me. I don't feel so alone. 

When I found the lump I thought the worst. Didn't help the drs kept saying yes that's a big lump.  Then originally the Dr's said its likely begnin. So I felt more relieved. Then the ultrasound and biopsy came. I was told we don't know what it is. But I still remained positive but worried until my week later results appointment was cancelled as the results weren't back. I then told myself it was cancer. 2 days later I was told it was cancer but lymph nodes seem to be clear and it's grade 1. So remaining positive is the only way I can be now to be able to cope. 

My friend told me about a psychology study where they found picturing prihanas eating the cancer away had a physical effect! So I tried that which helped psychologically.  

Now i'm trying to remain positive. Thinking the worst and preparing for the worst isn't good for me. I'm telling myself I've already had the bad news and hopefully anything else will be positive.  First part it's I'm not in for a full mastectomy (I thought i wouldn'thave a choice!). I've been offered a lumpectomy and partial reconstruction (followed by radiotherapy) as its too close to the skin, my lymph nodes appear normal on scans and the lumps on my liver are begnin. 

This site has really helped me. I don't feel so alone. 

I love your way or thinking and your right, your had the bad news ,so now its all about the postive outcome..I think this where I'm struggling with the not knowing and not knowing a plan if it is to be bad news just feel like your life is literally on hold untill these tests ,I'll be honest I'm little worried about the MRI as I'm claustrophobic and not sure if it's on my shoulder or whole my body?? Xx

I wish I could think like that the mri wasn’t as claustrophobic as I thought because you are kneeling on your front it was just the awful noises it makes I hope I don’t need any more of those xx

Ahh ok so you didn't have a head to toe one that's what I fear mine might be..

Hopefully you won't need anymore and hopefully you won't have to long to wait to ,hope we all don't thats awaiting answers...How's your day been? Xx

My first was just the breast.  But because I'm tiny it caught a bit of my liver and they saw the cysts and said I needed another to check they were cysts so I had the second on my liver.  They do take a while. About 40 minutes each. But they don't hurt. It's just noisy.  The biopsy was the worst for me. I cried silently throughout. So glad I had my friend with me. X

Ahhh ok how lucky isit that it caught ur liver tho? I've not evan read up on the biopsy or the mri to be fair I just don't have it in me atm ,definitely think the support is needed makes all the difference xx

Yes tomorrow I have to have another biopsy I’m not looking forward to the first one I was taken by surprise so I just had to go straight to another room after the mammogram but this is an appointment  xx

I hope the biopsy has gone okay, the first one was such a shock, then told me then and there it was cancer- I had no one with me.  Take care 

Hope it goes well honey, and it's start to getting answers did they say anything from the first 1 ? How's ur eve gone so far ? Xx

I'm sorry to hear you had to go through that on your own surprised they told you straight away , but least you didn't have wait and they could sort a plan? How you doing today ? Having nice eve ? Xx