Thank you so much I really hope it could be anything other then the worse everyone keeps saying prepare yourself for the worse ....how do we actually do this ?? Lol ....thank you I hope I do to we all need it so much xx
I think just where my heads at im expecting the worse so there for it would effect the holiday all round BUT I say this and I'm actually trying my best to keep my chin up this site has really helped me loads thank u to all xx
When I found the lump I thought the worst. Didn't help the drs kept saying yes that's a big lump. Then originally the Dr's said its likely begnin. So I felt more relieved. Then the ultrasound and biopsy came. I was told we don't know what it is. But I still remained positive but worried until my week later results appointment was cancelled as the results weren't back. I then told myself it was cancer. 2 days later I was told it was cancer but lymph nodes seem to be clear and it's grade 1. So remaining positive is the only way I can be now to be able to cope.
My friend told me about a psychology study where they found picturing prihanas eating the cancer away had a physical effect! So I tried that which helped psychologically.
Now i'm trying to remain positive. Thinking the worst and preparing for the worst isn't good for me. I'm telling myself I've already had the bad news and hopefully anything else will be positive. First part it's I'm not in for a full mastectomy (I thought i wouldn'thave a choice!). I've been offered a lumpectomy and partial reconstruction (followed by radiotherapy) as its too close to the skin, my lymph nodes appear normal on scans and the lumps on my liver are begnin.
This site has really helped me. I don't feel so alone.
I love your way or thinking and your right, your had the bad news ,so now its all about the postive outcome..I think this where I'm struggling with the not knowing and not knowing a plan if it is to be bad news just feel like your life is literally on hold untill these tests ,I'll be honest I'm little worried about the MRI as I'm claustrophobic and not sure if it's on my shoulder or whole my body?? Xx
I wish I could think like that the mri wasn’t as claustrophobic as I thought because you are kneeling on your front it was just the awful noises it makes I hope I don’t need any more of those xx
My first was just the breast. But because I'm tiny it caught a bit of my liver and they saw the cysts and said I needed another to check they were cysts so I had the second on my liver. They do take a while. About 40 minutes each. But they don't hurt. It's just noisy. The biopsy was the worst for me. I cried silently throughout. So glad I had my friend with me. X
Ahhh ok how lucky isit that it caught ur liver tho? I've not evan read up on the biopsy or the mri to be fair I just don't have it in me atm ,definitely think the support is needed makes all the difference xx
It’s so scary, I don’t know how anyone copes, I just can’t bring myself to tell my wee ones. I’ve been keeping super busy… but to the point of being manic snd obsessively decorating my kids room sorting things out, working… I just feel like it’s going to hit me after the op’ then more waiting. We’ve rearranged our holiday I thought the kids would be totally gutted but they are feeling really exited swoped 10days in lanzerote for 3 days in Blackpool. They must know somethings up. Sorry I don’t have any advice, I’m going to start with gratitude diary again 3 new things everyday to be grateful for, it’s helped in the past… and suduko when I can’t sleep. Also headspace app has a coping with cancer meditation. Take care x x
This is what I've been doing keep super busy ,although it's now Monday and I struggle with the weekday eves when I'm alone mind starts back up to its negative thinking ,
I'm sorry you had to change your holiday plans BUT bless the kiddies are still super excited for it :-)
Pretty sure my daughter knows there something up with me she super, super clingy atm lots of cuddles which I love !
I'll have try them ideas as they sound pretty good and I'm up for trying anything just to see if it helps.
