My dad has very recently been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer that has spread to the fatty tissues surrounding, we’re currently waiting to be referred to specialists and discuss options, I have been trying to educate myself but Google seems to be my worst enemy at the moment. I’m having the hardest time processing this and I can only imagine how he’s feeling about it. My dad is my best friend and I can’t imagine a life without him, I woke up this morning in absolute tears and my day is an emotional rollercoaster. I have a family of my own but I can’t seem to shake this feeling, all of the thoughts of what if and what’s next, I don’t know how to prepare myself or what to do with myself. I’m really struggling, I guess I just needed to rant and if anyone has any tips for preparing for what’s coming next it would be appreciated, I know I’m not alone in this but I can’t help feeling alone. Life is so cruel.