My cancer is different to yours but I hear you and can relate to the anxiety and feeling alone. I think that not thinking too far ahead is a good approach.  I have found that taking one day at a time is working for me - some days bring challenges and others are quite mundane by comparison, but you must be kind to yourself.  Allow yourself to time to adjust and I’m sure you will feel better once you know your treatment plan.  Sending you positive vibes and hoping for the best outcome for you.  You will surprise yourself with your strength I’m sure xxx

Hello celtictrace

Gosh, how wonderful to get this lovely message from you, thank you so much. Your advice is so sensible - I've always tended to jump ahead I guess it's a defence mechanism but does backfire of course. Guess from your name you are a Scottish girl, good to hear, I'm from the South coast. Feeling down today as it's so grey but your positive vibes can only help. By the way, being called Suez was a mistake of mine - it should read Suze but I mistyped in my hurry to register here ! 

How are you and how far are you along your treatment path ? I would love to keep in touch with you, the first person to reach out to me on this site and believe me you're cherished ! Tell me anything you like - the first time you laughed after your diagnosis, what you do to keep mind and body occupied or just anything you like.

Much love and the very best of wishes to you xxx

Hello celtictrace

Gosh, how wonderful to get this lovely message from you, thank you so much. Your advice is so sensible - I've always tended to jump ahead I guess it's a defence mechanism but does backfire of course. Guess from your name you are a Scottish girl, good to hear, I'm from the South coast. Feeling down today as it's so grey but your positive vibes can only help. By the way, being called Suez was a mistake of mine - it should read Suze but I mistyped in my hurry to register here ! 

How are you and how far are you along your treatment path ? I would love to keep in touch with you, the first person to reach out to me on this site and believe me you're cherished ! Tell me anything you like - the first time you laughed after your diagnosis, what you do to keep mind and body occupied or just anything you like.

Much love and the very best of wishes to you xxx

Hi Suze - I’m actually Welsh and I belong to a triathlon club called Celtic Tri so that is how my name came about.

My cancer is in my tongue and neck lymph nodes and I’m due to have surgery on Friday. My first surgery date had to be pushed back due to complications after having wisdom teeth out (you couldn’t mak e it up). Whether I need radiotherapy afterwards will depend on the results of the surgery  so I’m keeping everything crossed!

When I was first diagnosed I thought it was the end of the world but I’ve always had a good sense of humour and I’ve used this often when thinking of the future. I can honestly say that I laugh every day, mostly at my dog who is the best therapy!

My cancer journey has taken many twists and turns and this is why I found it best not to think too far ahead. I have found myself wasting so much energy on worrying about things that never happened that I decided the one day at a time approach was the way forward.  

Your appointment day will be here before you know it and I’m sure you will feel so much better after it - I know I did.  I went from being on the verge of hysteria to feeling hopeful and more in control.  I hope it’s the same for you.

Please let me know how it goes and feel free to get in touch any time.

Sending hugs 

Trace xx

Oh Trace

Just an indication of how my brain has gone when saying you must be Scottish - so sorry ! I should have thought it out, my boy lives in Wales (Dolgellau) and I often visit.

You sound such a positive person (a triathlete, wow), what you said about feeling world ending and wasting energy worrying are so true. I so hope it all goes well for you on Friday, your positivity (if that's a word?) will be a huge help. Let me know how you get on please and I will do the same. 

Thanks so much for taking time to contact me again, cant tell you how much that means to me

Suze xxx