I found a lump two months back and was fairly sure it was something sinister, my partner wouldn't engage with me pre-diagnosis as his father was very sick and then he passed away. He wouldn't talk to me about it then and he won't talk to me about it now. Before I had my results he just asked me to wait unitl his fathers funeral was out of the way. After that we were apart for another week and nothing was discussed, then the news came. I expected the news that I got, my mum didn't want to believe it as I am 32 so she was in shock. My partner couldn't believe it and I had to tell him on the phone as he was still away. Since then he has barely spoken to me about it and all we do is argue on the phone. I can not stay here if he will not engage with me or support me. I feel worthless, like these past four and a half years were just one big lie. If I leave, I need to find somewhere to live. I will leave my dog. I will go through a break up. I guess what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
