Hi all I had kidney cancer around 4 years ago, it was a class 4 cancer.

I had the kidney and cancer removed successfully,  I've been on the observation list going for my regular check ups on time .

Then 2 weeks before Christmas I was called back to the hospital and told I had a growth on my liver, my consultant said he was treating it as 99% cancer because of my history. 

I've been in and had a MRI this week and I'm now waiting to for an appointment again. 

The problem I have is my mind is in turmoil with dreadful thoughts,  I feel like I've already lost without even seeing the specialist, I need to speak with someone who can help me. 

I have just had a major argument with my wife over a stupid thing of no consequence, I feel like my whole world is falling apart, the thing is I need to know but I'm frightened of finding out. 

What can I do please someone help.