Grrr, just lost a long post when my 'internet' flipped out.

Second attempt.  Just really wanted to wish you a lovely time with the family, from home and abroad.

Let the home take care of itself and thoroughly enjoy the time with everyone.  Just love celebrations and am trying to imagine  what the 'fun' hen do  would be like (adults going back to childhood comes to mind - sounds a blast so hope it was! Have a truly wonderful get together and wishing future happiness to the bride and groom (even though I only know of them throught he virtual world). Have a piece of cake for me please.

Have found it quite worthwhile letting the charity shops benefit by my spring cleaning but when I do  not feel like tackling the job I wait until I do! Have attacked my wardrobe for a couple of hours today and was horrified to find how much I could move on (but now have lots of empty hangers (perhaps I should put them in the bags as well).

Spent more hours in the garden than I should have over the past two days as the weather has been very good -17deg today so lawn mowed and tidying begun (body aching but for the right reasons ha ha).

Take care, have a whale of a time with the family  both home and abroad. Love and hugs  Jules (sending with fingers firmly crossed this time)

Great to hear from  you Garf and to know that you are having professional help  with your demons.  Believe me I do understand how hard this must be for you and your other half (23 years in a home with a Mum with depression gives me a clearer window I suppose).  Have courage and take guidance and I really hope there will be a huge light at the end of the tunnel.

Hope Hannah is being helped with her health issues and that they got to the bottom of the problem.  I am sure you are worrying for 'England' (Mum does!) and wish the PM facility was enabled but they are having to set it up from scratch (Max has a petition thread which is keeping everyone informed as the Moderators respond to our moans and groans).

Am adjusting slowly to life as one rather than two and mutual support with children and grandchildren does help a lot.  Am enjoying the better weather as can get into the garden and am rebuilding my wildlife corner now that have new back wall up. Body aches but for all the right reasons, I think.

Back to work (again) on Monday following two weeks holiday (had to be used up or lost!) and to be honest have rather enjoyed the last few days but that could be due to sunshine.  Next weekend will be new F1 season (and Mothering Sunday - spent with both children as am being treated to tea and cakes) and will be strange watching it without hubby so perhaps just as well son enjoys it too!

Right am off to sort my dinner so will say all the very best to you and send peaceful hug.Jules x 

  Hi Jules.You are one great Lass always good to read your post`s I cut my grass for the first time today and then fed it .Fed all my rose`s and shrubs some are comming to flower now the chameila`s look great .Regards for now take care .george x

Good afternoon Jules,

Have had a very busy day today. Started to cot out my new owl picture frame (Trial run/prototype) Then managed to persuade Mrs B to go out for a drive. Went out for two hours and visited a garden centre on  route. Then when I got back I nearly finished off the pict/frame All I have to do is to glue the eyes on and fix the brass picture turns on the back. The first item is always a big learning curve and the next one always take a lot less time. Will post picture tommorow.

But enough about me. Hope you had an enjoyable evening last night. Hope your daughter is okay now. I am surprised you have been able to mow the lawns allready. As the houses where I live were all built where there used to be a large pond, the ground was all built up but with clay so the ground takes a long time to dry out. Hope you have got used to your new washing machien and it must be a lot easier than having to go to the laundrete and less time consuming too.

My grandson had everyone laghing at the hospital when he had his pre op yesyerday. He even told them he wants the same room he had when he had his hernia done. When I was doing his story on Wednesday evening, he was pretending to make me some food. So I told him, "Your making your dads mouth water with all this food", and he replied, "He's too fat allready". Poor dad. He is a ckeeky liitle lad. Dont have any idea where he gets it from????????

Hope the rain holds off for your usual Sunday morning walk. Have a peaceful day tommorrow, hugs, Brian.

Bless you George for your sweet words.  Think the weather has sent everyone out into the fresh air and good to see new life blossoming from old wood. Hope you and your daughter are holding up and send you good wishes for a peaceful week ahead.  Take care.Jules

Good evening Brian, just logged on to my e mails before settling down to watch some tv.

 Glad your grandson got through his pre-op and his cheekiness will help him and the whole family cope - he is a little diamond and do wish him well. Let us know how the op goes.

Look forward to seeing the start of your new wooden adventures and bet it felt good being able to get back to it.  Lovely that you were able to take Mrs B for such a long drive - did  you find anything nice at the garden centre.  My son is going to take me along next time he goes as we both need compost for containers and I have a feeling other things will find their way into my trolley!!

Washing machine is okay but nice that I can dry outside even though it does have a drying facility you cannot beat the freshness that hanging outside gives you. Enjoyed my night out, though going alone felt a little strange (my friend went to Cheltenham with her husband for a day at the races) but had a little win so worth the bus journies and will save it towards my spending money on holiday in April. Looking forward to my walk tomorrow though still have to decide where to go - will see what the morning brings.

Have a peaceful day with Mrs B.Take care. Jules x

Good afternoon Jules,

Here is the finished owl frame. Will have to put a better picture in it though. Have allready nearly got the next two rady. Just needd to make the base plate and cut the perspex and hardbord for the back. These took less than half the timethan the one shown in the picture and will be even better quality.

Hope you enjoyed your walk. Kind regards Brian.

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Woo hoo Brian, looking good and   bet it felt good to be back doing what you love. Hope you were pleased with the results of  your labours.

I had a quiet morning yesterday in the end as was invited to go on a country park walk in the afternoon so saved my energy! Had much fun watching eldest grandson scoot and run round and retrieved muddy welly when he 'left it behind' when he tried to free himself (hilarious look on his face when he realised!!).  However did not learn and when it happened again it was his Dad that did the honours but this time he had put his foot back down - yuk - It was a squelchy walk back to the car park with more mud on the inside of the welly than on the outside so a bit of cleaning up required (and a bath to look forward to!). 

Am having the two boys after eldest finishes school today as my daughter has a doc's appointment following on from her hospital trip last week and we are hopeful they can fast-track her heart check up at Harefield Hosp to help ease her mind.  Bless her she is struggling a little at the moment with all that has occured so far this year so will help as much as I am able.

Am back into work today (not really looking forward to it if I am honest, as have kind of got used to being able to get on with things as and when I wanted but needs must and I suppose I will be fine once back into the routine again) and will miss being able to get into the garden - lovely sunny (and frosty) start  hre but apparently will be raining by time I leave to come back home.

Well, breakfast is done and dusted  so best move on.  Hope you and Mrs B have a good day.  Hugs  Jules x

Hello Jules, not been on for a while, busy taking care of mum.  I am feeling very emotional this morning, trying to get a few bits done and the tears are flowing.  My mum looks so frail lately with the weight loss. I took my brother to the airport at 4.30am today after his weekend visit, always sad to see him go!  Ordered repeat prescription forms mums gp surgery last Thursday and when it was delivered late Friday and I checked it Saturday there were two missing sets of tablets!  I spoke to the chemist who confirmed they did not receive the request, so complained to her gp surgery at 9am.  Unbelievable, I said you never call to see how things are and the last home visit I requested the gp actually asked her what was wrong with her. So I think my tears are sadness, worry, frustration and some anger today.  Sometimes I just feel so alone dealing with this even though I have you, God bless you, Macmillan etc it's still so hard.  I read this last post and you know it made me feel better right away, so happy to see you have had a lovely weekend, enjoy your day at work, speak soon.....Kerrie xxxx

Hi Kerrie

This journey is such a rollercoaster of emotions isn't it?  I expect seeing off  your brother makes  you feel like you are having to cope all alone again and its both frustrating and frightening in equal measure. It certainly does not help with the professionals treat you/your Mum like a number and cannot get her meds ordered properly - not surprised you pulling your hair out.  I know I found it increasingly difficult watching my husband  take the downward spiral and knowing you cannot change it for the better is pretty awful but always remember you are doing your best and are not superhuman.  I am sure your Mum is very glad to have you nearby but it would seem that the doc and nurses need to be reminded that she needs their attention too. It feels like sometimes when they know there is a relative easily to hand things can be let slide as you need to keep on asking.  We were, I realise very very lucky with hubby's medical team and just wish it was the same level of service for everyone.  Its good to have the forum to offload on - it kept me sane for many months during our journey and am here for you now whenever you fancy or can manage to chat.

First day back at work was pretty hectic but just means the time rushes by.  I had the grandchildren for an hour or so after school finished as my daughter needed to attend her GP and its easier without a toddler and a six year old.  Gave them their tea so that she can enjoy a relaxing evening with her husband once he returns from work. 

Look after yourself. Sending hugs. Jules x