Hi . I don’t know if anyone will read this but I got diagnosed with breast cancer in 2021 , it was a full year of chemo followed buy recon and then trying to heal . My husband at the time wasn’t there for me emotionally and was actually the meanest he has ever been to me , he had always been kind , patient and gentle and we had been together since we were 15 and met in school . After the treatment ended I couldn’t forgive him for not being there for me , the pain was unbearable and no matter how I tried to connect with him nothing worked . He showed no compassion on many occasions and just became really hard . He distanced himself from me . I left our family home and knew that I needed to , I was trying to heal . After leaving he started seeing another woman who ended up staying in my family home and sleeping in the marital bed where I  had my treatment . Can anyone help me to understand this . I’m struggling and now he wants to reconcile but I am still hurting from what he did (and her) . I could never do that and show such lack of empathy or lack of morals . Thank you for reading this