Kirstyn

Hi kirstyn,I can't sleep so just popped on here to post another poem, and I saw your post and thought I'd reach out to you. 

I know how you feel about worrying if your cancer will return,anyone who's had any kinda cancer ,will always have this in the back of thier mind,we are all human and it's quite natural to feel like this from time to time. 

You've been through so much  ,and having a relationship break up to deal with as well,couldn't of been easy for you.  Don't be so hard on yourself, feeling the way you do,as I said it's natural to feel this way,not nice ,as you probably think you will always feel this way,but you will get stronger I'm sure.  I'm just over four years clear of breast cancer,so I understand where your coming from. Don't give up on relationships in the future, you never know what's around the corner,you may find that special someone,when you least expect it. But im sure a lot of  your time is taken up looking after your little boy. Tell yourself  your amazing ,because you really are,I don't think us women give ourselves enough self love and praise,and we really should. We should value ourselves more than we do. Just take each day as it comes ,and do little steps to re  build  your confidence in you, why because your worth it,you push those thoughts away about your cancer returning,as to be honest those thoughts are making you unhappy. Anyone of us could go out and be hit by a bus,snuffed out like a light, but we don't dwell on these kinda thoughts ,as it probably won't actually happen. Try to look at it in this way,cancer might not actually ever return,and with your thoughts that it might,it's hindering your life,making you worried and unhappy, none of us know what tomorrow will bring,worrying about things isn't good for you.  It's natural to worry a bit,but push it to the back of your mind,otherwise even though you've beaten cancer,it's still controlling you and your thoughts,don't let it. 

Better days are yet to come, as long as you take back controlled of your thoughts,hope this helps I really do. X

Hi Kirstyn, I found your story very moving. I know your post is 2 months old so I hope things have improved in the meantime. I have 2 suggestions but they may not be suitable for you. The first is that Maggie’s, the cancer charity offer a course call Where bow? It is aimed at cancer patients who have completed their treatment and runs over 7 weeks. The other thing to consider is doing a course in Mindfulness. It really helped me with both anxiety and depression and helps me take each day as it comes. Good luck with everything. 

Thank you so so much for you kind words. I'm trying to take day by day but of course good days and bad. If you have any more poems I would love to read them. 

Again thank you so much. X

Hi there 

Thank you so much for your kind words. I take it day by day. Yes I have heard of Maggie's. If fact there is one not far from me. 

I have done mindfulness and I do that every morning and evening. I do find this helps. I also do diamond art and colouring with my son which helps massively. 

Relationship wise hmmm maybe not. Haha think it's easier being on my own. 

Of you would like to chat more I would be more than happy to. 

Thank you again so much. X

I forgot to say I'm so pleased that you are 4 years clear. So proud of you. Your right we don't give ourselves enough credit for what we can handle. 

Please I would love to chat to you more. 

K. Xx

Hi kirstyn ,thank you for your reply and I'm glad your doing OK,I too have some bad days ,but that's quite normal after what having had cancer and it's treatments. Thank you for the interest in my poems. I've written quite a few on here,I haven't written them down ,I just write them on here as I'm feeling the thoughts. One on here is called it's quite normal,another one is called Goodnight, most of them are on the moving on category on here, if you type in  poems it might bring some of them up . I'll try to find some of the other titles of my poems on here and get back to you if I find them. I think it would be easier if we had a category on here called  thoughts in poems,would be good for all of us on here to find poems that are written on here as I know there are others on here who have written some too.At last we are having some nice sunshine,I think that improves our minds ,getting out and about in the fresh air and bit of sun,is good for the soul....now that's a thought for another poem lol. I might just write one . Hopefully I'll find some of my other poems ,and let you know. Xx

Thank you ,we really don't, we're kind to others but  not to ourselves ,we should be thinking ive handled a lot more than I ever thought i could ..well done me...oh dear that's another poem popping into my head...ha ha that made me smile. Xx

Hi kirstyn ,ive just gone on to moving on category on here typed in poems,and found a lot of my poems there,by scrolling down. So hopefully if you want to read them ,by doing that you will find them . Let me know if you do find them,I know a lot of people on here have found them ,and have liked and commented on them ,which is lovely,its nice to know that they have resonated with some .

Aww yes I will definitely have a look. Thank you and yes your right we don't give ourselves enough credit for things we have gone through. I would really like to keep in contact with you if that's ok? Please let me know and I will send you my number. Xx