I was diagnosed with cervical cancer in 2019 and I have completed my treatment in 2021. My little boy was only a year and a half when I was diagnosed. I was with my ex partner as well. We had been together for 2 years then. I found that although he did come to some of my appointments, he wasn't truly supportive. During that time he would only take one day off work and weekends only because of COVID at that time as well so he could not work. I found that I had to be strong continuously. Even now when I have been stable for 5 years I am still struggling with the effects of having cancer, treatment and also trying to move forward. Yes I am great full that I'm here and I get to see my boy grow but also I have had to move out of my ex's house, deal with my son who possibly has ASD autism and get my head around having been through all of that as well. I was in and out of hospital as well and I am also now going through the menopause brought on by the treatment. I can't have hrt because of the estrogen so I'm coping with that every day as well. I know there are worse people out there than me but as my own personal struggle, how do I get to move on and live with this knowing it can come back at time? What about if I entertain the idea of another relationship? Im not sure that I can be close with anyone. I'm just really scared of taking that leap. I am trying to be kind to myself and be strong for my boy but I find it so difficult to carry on some days. 

Anyway thank you for taking the time to read my story. Any advice would be great full.