Hi.. sorry you feel like this.. I had similar at the same end of Nov, op Jan & 5 days of radiotherapy.  I did have a lucky find on the mammogram as wouldn’t have been detected by examination.  I am feeling emotional, scared, cross and uptight.  I think it’s because I’m generally dealing with what I went through.  Your mind has probably caught up with what actually happened.  You haven’t process these things but time is a healer.  I keep worrying about reoccurrence and it’s stopping me enjoying my life .. Hope you are ok  

Thank you so much for your kind response. I'm hoping I will feel a bit more relaxed and confident after my first check up. Although I think it will always be at the back of our mind now that we have had cancer. It alters the way you are. Wish you the best of good wishes. Jan 

I think you are right, I wake up and think of it immediately.. can’t believe I had it.. I’m 50, it still shocks me.  I wish you well with your mammogram.  I think once you get the ok on the first one it will test your mind and I hope you can move on x

Thank you. I am 76 and my mum had mastectomy aged 79 she recovered well and lived till 96 , that gives us but hope  doesn't it. X 

I think it does stay with you.. I’m still shocked I had cancer, I’m 50 and had no idea as I’d regularly check my breasts and always found nothing.  I wake up in the morning and it hits me out of nowhere that I had cancer and when will it come back .. I wish you well with your mammogram & hopefully once the 1st one comes back good news it will put things into perspective and you can relax and move on.. best wishes x

I think it does stay with you.. I’m still shocked I had cancer, I’m 50 and had no idea as I’d regularly check my breasts and always found nothing.  I wake up in the morning and it hits me out of nowhere that I had cancer and when will it come back .. I wish you well with your mammogram & hopefully once the 1st one comes back good news it will put things into perspective and you can relax and move on.. best wishes x