Feel cancer has taken my old self away

Recovery from BC ( diagnosis last May) had surgery, chemo & radiotherapy. My life has pretty much gone back to normal . However it isn't . I'm struggling with my emotions, struggling at work( job I love) and can't seem to focus . People don't seem to understand how cancer messes with your life 

Not sure what to do, where to turn :-(

  • Hi Mollysue,

    A very warm welcome to our forum.

    I am delighted to hear that you only need regular monitoring and no further treatment. A cruise sounds just the medicine you need to pick you up and I hope that you get great benefit from it.

    Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi im John,

    I have prostate cancer  aggressive  stage 3, im on hormone implants,  and not long finished radiotherapy,  i feel the same lost everyone means well,  but they don't see truly how i am, I see im not alone how im feeling, 

    Thank you 

  • Hi John,

    A very warm welcome to the forum.

    This post is 3 years old and I'm not sure whether Botwinkle is still active on the forum. I am sorry to hear about your diagnosis. It is good to see that you have finished radiotherapy and I hope that the hormone implants are working for you. 

    You are certainly not alone with how you are feeling! Regardless of what type of cancer, many of us tend to feel like this. I am now 16 years down the line from 2 bouts of breast cancer and can relate to what you say. Unless your family and friends have previously been touched by cancer, they have little idea of what a diagnosis entails.

    If you put some key words related to how you feel in the "search forum" box at the top of this page, you'll find more recent posts from others who feel the same.

    People often complain about losing friends when they get a cancer diagnosis. Initially, I did lose some people, who I had considered to be good friends and I was upset about this. Since then, I have made far more genuine friends, who have appeared from some most unexpected quarters. I have discovered that a positive attitude to our situation is a great help in coping with this disease and, as my attitude has become more positive throughout the years, I have become more successful in making friends.

    Loneliness can be a big problem too. It is hard to get out to meet people when we are tied up with treatments, not feeling well or are too fatigued to venture out - we don't meet many people when we're sitting in our own homes!

    I hope that, with the passage of time, you will be less dejected by how you feel. Now that you have found this forum, you need never feel lonely again. There is always someone here to chat and offer advice or support.

    Please keep in touch. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine

  • You have certainly been through the mill Jolamine, 

    Bless you,

    Your right about friends disappearing  i have had quite a few doing exactly that, 

    Im just trying to move on, and maybe find a little love or companionship,  I feel  like I still have something to offer in life, 

    Kind regards 

    John 

  • Hi John, I just replied to your other thread.  I see you have prostrate cancer and completed your radiotherapy.  It is hard to move on when you don't feel like your old self and people expect you to be who you were before the cancer.  Cancer changes you and it is difficult to deal with sometimes.  Penny Brohn is a cancer charity and they do online courses for people who have completed treatment to try and help them move on.  Glad you found this forum, it certainly helps me.  Happy to chat anytime.  I have incurable breast cancer with extensive bone mets, but still lead a good life.

    Lee x

  • Bless you, we are not in a good place for sure, 

    But we can be ok, as in there is still life to live

    Im also able to chat, I live alone anyway,  

    John x

  • Hi John,

    I'm sure that you have plenty to offer in life. None of us are ever the same after a cancer diagnosis, but with a concerted effort, we can become a stronger post-cancer person.

    You might find it interesting to follow a more recent post from MintyMo. This is entitled "Breast cancer diagnosis 27th May - I hate the fact that my life is no longer under my control".

    I know that it's difficult to act as our own counsel, but sometimes we have to take responsibility for ourselves and actively seek that which we desire. This doesn't happen overnight, you just have to keep chipping away at it, until you feel that you are making some headway. Have you looked at any of the Prostate cancer support groups? You can access comprehensive support through organizations such as ZERO Prostate Cancer, Prostate Cancer Foundation and global communities such as Let's Huddle and Smart Patients. These programs offer emotional support, education, financial navigation and caregiver assistance.

    Have you had any counselling? This can help. Charities such as Maggie's offer this service free of charge. There are a number of other cancer charities throughout the country that operate under different names locally. These all vary slightly in the services they offer. You can pop in for a cuppa and a chat with others in the same position as yourself, you can join one of their walking groups, some do yoga classes or avail of alternative therapies.

    You do not say what age you are - this will probably determine the places that you might frequent to find love and/or companionship. I notice that you enjoy going out, concerts and football, so there should be plenty of choice. Life is for living and, regardless of the hurdles it places in our paths, we only get the one chance at it. I sincerely hope that by putting yourself 'out there', you will be successful in this quest.

    Just remember that we are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine