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Lilyange
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Feeling so lonely,

This cancer lark is hard work, I'm not coping too well,my Anxiety level is to 90, can anyone tell

Me does it get any better,or ease off,I just turned 50 this year and this has turned my whole life upside down,

I was diagnosed with lung and lymph node cancer late October,I'm due my 4th chemotherapy on the 2nd January,

I'm on 2 very strong chemotherapy s ,my body seems to be coping well,no major issues or sickness thank God,

I think my biggest problem is the scans after my 6th treatment,so worried to know if the Chemotherapy even touched the cancer,I'm wore out from the panic Attacks,I got mild relaxers from my Gp but not finding them great, only peace inget is when I'm asleep, can anyone help with advice please,

Ange!

  • Offline in reply to sangha

    I lost all my hair after the 1st chemo,but theyntold me I would,I had really long blond hair,I'm on 2 very strong chemotherapy s,you will get both mouth wash and Mycostatin from your nurses or doctor looking after you,make sure and get enough,I asked for 4 bottles of Mycostatin each time,

    Try the dool cap if you want,if it works great,if not,it will grow back,chemo is not as scary as it seems,I remember I didn't know what to expect either,and yes it's all very scary,it's the unknown that we're going into,imhad to have a pic_line fitted as my veins are very very bad,best thing ever,they can do everything from that,no more black and blue bruises all over me,best wishes going forward Hun,x

    Ange!

  • Offline in reply to davek

    Oh my Goodness Dave,

    I've just read your story and I have to say you are a walking Miracle, that is an amazing story,

    Whatever your doing keep doing it,I'm so happy for you,

    I'm praying every day for a miracle,I'm so so afraid of eventually having to have my scans to see if the chemo even touched the cancer,I can't get past the fear and constant panic,I hardly leave the house,

    Keep up the good work,Blessings,

    Ange!

  • Offline in reply to Lilyange

    Ange 

    Thsnk you so that’s the mouthwash the oncologist team has given you. 

    I’ll defo ask for few bottles and whAt Is mycoastatin? 

    Sorry to hear about your hair. It’s a fair swap I guess I have long black Indian hair lol with hilites. I will try the cap though. Is your hair growing bAck now. ?  I’m gona get extensions after chemo is over. Oh have you had a bag from treatment compAny if not I’ll send you details it’s a chemo goodie bag with over 100 of goods in it well worth it it’s free xxx 

  • Offline in reply to sangha

    Mycostatin is an antibiotic for Trush the mouth,it's brilliant medication,you'll get that from oncologist also,make sure and use it a few times a day every day after chemo,or you'll get horrible mouth ulcers and sore lips,my hair won't grow back untill chemo finishes,late February I think,never heard of a chemo goodie bag,proberly not intitled to itnin Ireland Hun,x

  • Offline in reply to Lilyange

    oh your in Ireland. ? Xx ok 

    thsnk you for your help x

  • Offline in reply to sangha

    Your welcome,I'm here if you need a chat,x

  • Offline in reply to Lilyange

    thank you. And I’m here for y too x

  • Offline in reply to Lilyange

    Hi Angel, well done so far and keep going it's definitely worth it. If i hadn't had chemotherapy i would have died end of February 2016. I've been living a normal life since. I've still got cancer I'm uncurable but can live with my uninvited guest.. Its worth fighting for. Good luck and keep fighting, I'm also looking after my disabled wife she needs 24/7 care. I promised I'd look after her if she'd marry me. She's 14 years older,.. Good luck..... Billy 

  • Offline in reply to Billygoatt

    Thank you so much Billy,

    You are so good to be still living with it and taking care of your wife,total respect to you,im only 50 and lost my husband 7 years ago to cancer,I looked afte him for 6 years and believe me it wasn't easy,

    Now I have to deal with it myself and feel very alone,I'm so so scared all the time,can't seem to shake this fear and panic Attacks,everyone tells me to be positive but I can't,I don't know  how I'm to do it,I'm seeing a counselor but it's not helping,I can't concentrate on TV or reading or anything,it's cruel

    Ange!

     

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