Hello Ange. 

I'm so sorry to hear that today is such a difficult day for you. I want to say that it's natural to be scared and it's OK to have a cry if that's what you feel you need. And it's absolutely Ok to be channelling your inner Grinch! 
You're probably right to a degree that maybe you've had too much time to sit and think about things. That will lead to an increase in your anxiety. 
Is there something at home that you feel able to do this afternoon to try and take your mind off things. It could be something like watching a film or is there a book in the house you've not finished reading. It could be something as mundane as clearing our a cupboard or sorting through all those odd socks that you've been meaning to do. 

If you'd like to talk to someone then don't forget that the Samaritans are available 24/7. You can call them on 116 123 or talk to someone online via their website. 

You're in our thoughts today Ange. Although you may be feeling lonely please don't feel that you are alone. We are here for you. 

Best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator

Hi Ange,

Everyone who has been through chemo will be empathising with you as we read this.

Christmas is such a hard time for so many people - feel free to be a grinch and don't feel forced into enkoying forced fun and frivolities!

On the plus side, your bloods are fine - not everyone this far into a chemo regime can say that and we need to hold onto these positives.

Best wishes for Christmas and the New Year!

Fave

Thank you so much for reply Jenn,

I'm getting through the day slowly but surely,

I've no choice really, I can't seem to concentrate on a book or television, my mind won't let me relax,

I pray tomorrow will be a better Day,

Blessings,

Ange!

Thanks so much daveK,

I don't ask too many questions about my treatment, I just go and get it done and hope for the best,

As im on my own I suppose I don't want to know as il surely stress myself out,

But thank you for that positive about my bloods been good, I've had very little side effects so far,maybe as I go towards my last 3 session's it will hit me, but please God it won't and il fly through it,

Thank you again for taking the time to message here to me,kindness Appreciated,

Ange!