Ten years on and thankful

Ten years on

Dear friends,

Fabulous weather isn’t it?

Exactly ten years ago today I was admitted to hospital with breathing difficulties. As some of you know, it turned out to be metastatic breast cancer that had already spread throughout both of my lungs and liver. Before that day I had no idea that cancer could spread like that. But, enough of that.

It has been a surprising journey, and every day has been “interesting”. People used to ask me “How was your day?” and I always replied “*****!” until a good friend taught me that, however rubbish it feels, life is always “interesting” ….

Today I have an extraordinarily strong feeling of thankfulness that I am still living with my cancer. My medical team has been really good - despite me not being a patient patient!

For all that my beautiful children have achieved in the past ten years, I am so grateful and so proud of them. They have been totally amazing, and so have my family and my friends!

A lot of people on this site have been there for me, listened to my troubles, and offered so many words of support when I was terribly unhappy. What a journey it has been eh? And how happy I find myself now. Thank you.

Those of you who know me also know what an incredible support and friend my dear fiancée has been since we met six years ago. He is my best best BEST friend. I hope to make him as happy, and we looking forward to getting married in September this year.

Back in 2011 I was full of jealous hatred for anyone over 50 (I was only 44), and for anyone with grandchildren (I now have six!) - the years have taught me to be grateful for every day. I have also learnt not to predict what will happen because nobody knows what the future holds.

The journey has taught me that I must respect and acknowledge that we all have our own battles to fight all through our lives. It has taught me not to assume that my own difficulties surpass others’. Many people appear perfectly content on the surface, but have deep grief of their own hidden under the surface; they are the brave ones.

I dedicate this post to all those we have lost over the years, and recognise that every moment we spent with them remains precious

Mary

x

  • Hi Mary,

    Your post made me emotional but it's fantastic how far you have come and what you have overcome, it gives us all hope.

    My Dad has recently been diagnosed with lung cancer as well as his spine and we are awaiting the results from his liver biopsy, so we should have all his results and treatment plan by the end of the week.

    Of course I am dreading the worst, I've cried continuously, I cannot switch off with what may come.

    Can I ask what treatment you were given? Did you have to go through different treatment for the different areas etc?

    I hope you don't mind me asking those questions, I don't mean to put a negative on your post.

    Thank you

    Lucie x 

  • Hi Mary,

    wow what a journey you have had!!! It's so heartwarming to hear your story of hope and survival.  Yes each day we are given IS precious but at times cancer can home in and spoil the view if you get me?? 
     

    I think everyone who reads your story will be inspired. I am through breast cancer without any further complications. Trying to forge ahead without cancer's 'shadow' following me everywhere. Mostly I succeed but I do get the odd negative times occasionally. 
     

    Thank you SO much for posting. It's fabulous you remain well and still battling on. Go well and I of course wish you well.  
     

    Kebbs x x 

  • Hello Mary, 

    I just wanted to pop on with a quick reply to say congratulations on reaching your 10-year milestone and to thank you so very much for sharing this post. There is no doubt in my mind that it will bring hope and give support to many people who will read it. 

    Sending my very best wishes, 
    Jenn
    Cancer Chat moderator 

  • Hi Mary 

    Thank you so much for sharing your story and giving others hope! 
     

    Cancer messed with the wrong person when it messed with you :) 

    Sarah 

     

    xxxx

  • What a lovely thing to read

    Wishing you all the best x

  • I red your letter to the forum and told brenda what it said and she was in tears before the end  .                            We both congratulate you on your ten year anniversary, with your uninvited guest, and that you have alot longer with your new guest,"hubby to be" .        Remember keep positive.   

     Billy xxx

  • Hi Mary

    Thank you for sharing your wonderful news and writing such a lovely, inspiring post. Many congratulations on reaching this milestone, and for living your life in absolutely the best way. Time is the most precious thing we can have in life, and you are right-we need to be grateful for every day and appreciate it. x

  • Hi Lucie,

    I'm glad you reached out. I remember the tears, I remember the terror.

    We have to work with what we have don't we and, each day, do something (small but constructive) to negotiate a path through it all.

    Everyone's cancer is different. I feel that your dad's medical team will have the right advice for him, but my advice would be to keep asking questions. The words "are you sure?" have helped me many times, because medicine is such an imprecise art isn't it? And I like to know as much as possible so I can make informed decisions with my medical team about my treatment (and that will be different to your dad's as our cancers are different).

    As far as I know, there are lots of treatments out there and I shall be thinking of you both as you negotiate your way through.

    It is early days for you both. Try to stay calm if you can and take care of yourselves so that you can be in the best possible health to rise to any challenges ahead of you.

    Huge hugs, and best wishes,

    Mary

    xxx

     

  • Hi Jenn,

    Hi everyone,

    and Hi Billy,

    What a lot of fabulous replies and encouragement! Thank you!

    I know I'll never be rid of my cancer, but I am learning to live with it. And today it terrifies me; it always will. But I am a different person now. Ten years has made me stronger in so many ways, and ... weirdly... happier.

    It hasn't been an easy journey. Many tears, many challenges.

    Here's hoping that we can make all cancers curable and treatable in the future.

    Love to you all,

    Mary

    xxx

  • Sorry to message you out of the blue! Ive read your promise and it's given me so much inspiration and hope. I was diagnosed in October with advanced breast cancer I'm 42 with 7 children. My heads all over the place at moment ive just finished chemotherapy and will continue on targeted therapy xxx