I felt the same after the op Ploppy. It had been my focus and getting through it and starting to recover was the goal. After the op it felt as tho it had been achieved, largely even tho I knew I still had to heal not to mention the multi coloured boob I had for about three weeks  afterwards, hmmm....

Just wanted to say you’re not alone feeling the way you do  

Thanks Rileyroo, I’m really surprised I feel so negative, I honestly thought after Terry Tumour had been removed I would feel relieved but I don’t. I’m not sore, very colourful boobs though as you said but I felt so rough with the sickness after the op that I don’t want to go through it again, which is silly because I’ll only have to go through it again if it’s absolutely necessary. 

Oh blimey what a roller coaster this ride is x

Thanks Riley,

I’m sure once I’ve caught up on sleep etc I’ll feel a lot better x

Ploppy, oh bless you, I totally understand.....I had my lumpectomy in January, chemo done and now on rads....some days I amaze myself at how positive and strong I feel....then the very next day .....bang! I'm all doom and gloom...worry worry worry....

The waiting after the op is just unbearable....did they get it all? Is it in the nodes? What if I need another op? I can completely empathise with you....there is no magic wand, but just know there are many many people on here who can identify with you and somehow knowing your not the only one helps......let us know how it all goes? Xxxx

Thank you Marlyn for your reply, I’m not the most patient of people at the best of times x

It’ll come, don’t pressure yourself or let any one else into making you think your recovery is slow. Let your body tell you what needs to be done, do the exercises you should have been given, look after your skin, particularly if radiotherapy is a treatment option, and eat as healthily as you can. But if you fancy a bun, have one. 

Hi ploppy ...

Just to add .. so many call this cancer journey a rollercoaster... it's like the scariest rollercoaster you've ever seen .. and like that rollercoaster... going slowly up, doesn't feel to bad ... and then it stops right at the top ... and you can feel good you made it to the top ... then you come down the other side ... at a rate of noghts ... that's when you hear the screaming ... then just when you can't take any more ... it starts going nice and gentle up ... so it starts over again ..

So even those who are really tough , scream on the way down .. your not alone... we've all been there .. curled up and wanting it all to go away ... but somehow we find that little push, after the scream, to get back in the ring ... wer all here just trying to kick cancers *** ... coz although cancer wants us to stay down and give in .. we just have to look around at the hundreds of others right there , standing by you .. and you know the real meaning of BRAVE .. it's being scared witless but still doing what you have to anyway... that's all any of us can do ..

So don't fight those feelings when your down .. give your self permission to feel s*** ... and get it out ... wer not super human .. just humans trying to do things we would have never dreamed we could .. to truly understand ... you have to go through this journey ... others think they know .. but on here ... we've been there .. got the tee shirt...  sending you a vertual hug... Chrissie

Thank you for your kind words ladies. I went for a walk with my husband yesterday and it was lovely to get out and about and feel normal for a little while.

Think I’m going to have to get my dressings sorted today as I seem to have bled lots and the dressings aren’t sticking anymore.

Have a lovely day everyone x

Hi Ploppy and girls, gremlins on website so catching up, if that's OK. So glad you're home safe &sound Ploppy - good for you, completely get what you have said about waiting for post-op verdict. Walks are nice and totally agree eat whatever you fancy. Glad you feel a little bit normal again. You have been so brave. X