Well today is my 61st Birthday and I have had so many flowers had to go out and buy new vases.  Had a lovely Steak dinner and a couple of glasses of Champagne.  Really glad that my surgery was delayed until next week now it has given me a chance to come to terms with things and to enjoy my birthday.  Keep fighting wherever you are and whatever stage you are at.  Some days like today i keep expecting Jeremy Beadle to leap out of the bushes and tell me its all a joke as I dont feel ill, how can i have cancer?  Then I read about Dog the Bounty Hunters wife who started off with Stage 3 throat cancer 2 years ago and who died yesterday, then it hits me that this is serious.  Excuse ramblings probably champagne talking.

Best Regards

Mo xx

Hi Mo happy birthday try and keep,a positive mental attitude I can’t help yiu with surgery as I onky hadn’t radiotherapy n chemotherapy but hang on in there

hazel,x

Thanks Hazel

There is no only about Radiotherapy, I think that scares me more than surgery as might have to have some afterwards.  It all depends on the histology am having Trans Oral Resection with frozen section, which means they will send bits down to path lab before completing surgery to check if they have it all.  Feel like a bit of a trekky going into the unknown as I have no idea if I will be able to eat afterwards or alternative feeding as consultant put it and worse case scenario Stoma, so it really is a bit of a mystery till they start cutting but surgery gives me 60% chance of a cure whereas Radio and chemo combined only gives me 40% so have opted for the higher odds.  But it does all seem a bit surreal, guess you all felt that way before treatment began.  I know it wont be easy but I also want this cancer out of me.

Have a lovely evening at least the sun is shining.

Love Mo xx

Mo I missed your birthday sorry . I hope you had a happy one . All the very best for your treatment . Hugs Ginny x x

Thank you Ginny

Its been a nice day.  Been keeping my self busy as Surgery is now on the 3rd next Weds so been trying to not overthink things and just going with the flow.

How is your husband now, is he starting to feel a bit better after his treatment, I have been thinking of you as reading all the threads it gets worse before it gets better once the radio finishes.  Best wishes to you both.

Love Mo xx

Thank you Ginny

Its been a nice day.  Been keeping my self busy as Surgery is now on the 3rd next Weds so been trying to not overthink things and just going with the flow.

How is your husband now, is he starting to feel a bit better after his treatment, I have been thinking of you as reading all the threads it gets worse before it gets better once the radio finishes.  Best wishes to you both.

Love Mo xx