Fear of chemo - breast cancer

i was diagnosed with breast cancer in July and following a mastectomy and then follow up lymph node removal. (Thankfully only in 2 nodes on total) all other scans clear.

I started chemotherapy 4 weeks ago as a precautionary measure having my second treatment on Christmas Eve. I have felt quite poorly this time with a constant feeling of nausea and quite painful constipation.I am starting to feel really anxious about my next treatment and feel physically sick when I picture myself receiving it and I was wondering if this is normal?

  • I know someone with experience will offer support on your post. I also have breast cancer but just starting on my journey.....I hope the chemo levels out for you...how many more sessions do you have ? Xx

  • I have one more left of this cycle and then 9 weekly treatments to follow.

    i know it will be worth it all in the end and am trying to be strong but it is difficult sometimes.

    i wish you luck in your Journey and hope all goes well

  • Thank you, I won't lie, chemo frightens me silly, but it will be worth it in the end....it's mopping up any rogue cells. I hope you have a good support network around you...xxxx

  • My friends and family have been an amazing support. It’s just really difficult for them to understand how it all feels  even though I know it isn’t easy for them either.

  • I do know what you mean, only people who are in the same boat as you understand.....and we certainly do on here, we prop each other up xxx

  • Hi Scruff,

    Sorry you've having horrible side effects.

    Constipation is very common with chemo and I took senna as a preventative measure (checked with my onco nurse first of course).  So I started taking it the morning before chemo, two tablets in the morning and two at night, and then I took it until the constipation seemed to have passed (usually was only taking it for a week).

    Thing is the constipation alone will make you feel nauseous so getting rid of the constipation might help there.

    With my chemo they did an IV anti-emetic before the chemo, I take it yours are doing this too?  If not then it might be worth asking for it.

    Also, and this isn't as nuts as it might sound!!!!  Sometimes the nausea can be psychosomatic.  We don't realise it but our brains get information throughout our lives that chemo=vomiting, and I think then when we are on chemo our brains expect us to get sick so they make it happen.

    Of course it may just be that your are very unfortunate and are one of those that is getting a lot of sickness with your chemo, but it's worth giving mind over matter a try just in case it helps.

    Every morning I woke up feeling nauseous, but every morning I spoke to myself out loud for a good few minutes repeating over and over "I feel fine, I feel fine" and taking good deep breaths with it.  On most days that did actually work (sometimes I had to repeat it later in the day).  In the end there were only a few days where I actually was nauseous and ended up being very sick.  It's worth a shot, our brains can be too clever for their own good!

    You don't say what stage your cancer is, but if the cancer is precautionary and you still struggle with chemo then you could always stop it, or they could try a different kind?

    Hope something that I've said helps, definitely ask about taking senna (natural laxative) as that could really help a lot.

    Best wishes for 2019, although I'll catch up with you on here anyway :)

    LJx

  • Hi Twin Two

    the hospital gave me some Senna which eventually helped it just took a while. 

    Have started to feel better in the last couple of days since they have worked and the daily injections have stopped. 

    I just hate feeling so poorly and it makes me question why I am putting myself through this. I know it will be worth it in the end.

  • Glad that senna helped.  I think the nausea is one of the worst things.  Maybe not for others but I just absolutely detest feeling like I'm going to be sick.  I'd prefer pain to that.

    It's a bummer in the early days as it all feels quite slow but one day it starts to feel like "blink and it's all over".

    LJx