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So hear I am again ....up all night, unable to sleep thinking how the hell did I get to this point?

I'm usually very strong but these nights are becoming regular and it's these nights that lead me away from any normality. 

A year and a half I was diagnosed with brain cancer grade 4 ...translation. ..limited life..! Of course I can't do things by half  gotta go straight to the big one.

Since this I've had a drain put in, have had a brain cyst and various complications. 

Now I'm not asking for pity I'm just questioning it...how did I get here?

There's worse off than me, I know , I've always been open minded about things...

I guess we all loose our way with things like this and I always see myself as "waiting on death row".

Perhaps I'll get out of this better or worse, I really don't know.

All I do know is that this night was a real long *** night 

 

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    Hi Kat,

    Trying to make sense of this will drive you insane. Humans have always tried to find patterns in random events, often where none exist.

    Random mutations take place every day in everyone's bodies - most lead knowhere but others spiral out of control. There's no real rhyme or reason and certainly no moral imperative behind it. Murderers and evil people enjoy years of good health despite eating, drinking and smoking all the wrong things, whilst innocent babies who have never had the chance to do anythng wrong develop cancer and die. 

    I guess what I'm trying to say is go with the flow and don't worry about things you can't control - more easily said than done, I know. We all do it from time to time but it isn't healthy. 

     

    Best wishes

    Dave

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    Hi Kat,

    Trying to make sense of this will drive you insane. Humans have always tried to find patterns in random events, often where none exist.

    Random mutations take place every day in everyone's bodies - most lead knowhere but others spiral out of control. There's no real rhyme or reason and certainly no moral imperative behind it. Murderers and evil people enjoy years of good health despite eating, drinking and smoking all the wrong things, whilst innocent babies who have never had the chance to do anythng wrong develop cancer and die. 

    I guess what I'm trying to say is go with the flow and don't worry about things you can't control - more easily said than done, I know. We all do it from time to time but it isn't healthy. 

     

    Best wishes

    Dave

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