Hey pippin welcome to us crazy sexy mamas thread!

It's a tough time but you'll get thru this. One day at a time and one step at a time. Deep breaths and take it easy and listen to your body. Recovery from every bit is very slow but every one reacts differently. Do things you enjoy and have happy times.

You will get thru this. It may seem very scary and very lonely but remember we are here with you so just come onto this thread and we will be there to help support as best we can.

Ladies - hope you are all ok. Dizzle let us know you are ok.

Got mammo results and all clear. Hurray!! That's a relief! I am flying off to Canada tomorrow so pushed for results and can relax now.

Keep warm and keep well ladies.

Hi everyone.

Out of hospital....well they wanted to keep me til the weekend but discharged myself. Was worried for my dog and my house. Marker went down to 284 so still really high and still in agony and feel really poorly. Not only that been coughing up blood all day. Petrified it's something sinister but also in the mindset I don't care anymore. Jamie answered saying it wasn't his problem anymore and not to contact him again. How can someone a week ago say the can't wait to call you their wife and how much they love you then be so cold and cruel. I don't understand. If I did this would be a whole lot easier. I'm walking the dog in tears, bursting into tears at the corner shop, crying when some song comes on the radio. I never thought my heart could ache this much. I now know how people can die from it. Never felt pain like it. I don't know what I did so wrong to warrant this. There's something more to it. There has to be. Just didn't see it coming xx

Dizzle

Please please get your dog into kennels ( there are sone great ones out there) and get yourself back to the hospital. Don’t punish yourself for someone else’s stupidity. I know your heart aches but it will mend but your health may not, You feel like you don’t want to go on now but that is letting him win! No man or woman for that matter is worth that. Please please help yourself now. Deal with him later....

I’m there in virtual reality. If I could I would be there,  by your side in person.

Sundial

Completely agree with Sundial. He doesn’t matter, you do. There are many people on here who would be devastated if if any thing happened to you. Without being rude, get your rear in gear and get back to that hospital. 

If necessary, your dog can stay with me until you’re fit to be out and about. 

Oh Dizzle, I am so sorry.

Men can be such b*********s. Do you not have parents or friends around who can give you support.

You must take care of yourself and make yourself strong again. Ring the Samaritans, please don’t give up. I promise you no matter how bad it is at the moment it will get better.

You need to get yourself to the GP they will listen and help you get on track.  

Please please take care and keep talking to us so we can share your pain.

sending huge hugs xx 

Dizzle believe me when I say I understand what you're feeling. You are strong otherwise this wouldn't have come in your path. This cancer journey realigns the flow of your life and cleanses it from why isn't good. I know you are devastated but he has the problem - not you. Being the martyr and playing roulette with your life isn't your doing. We are here and if you want to private msg any of us on here we will help.

Bring yourself out of this doom by talking to Macmillan. His loss hun. I can think of some very choice words for him but am not allowed to type thwm on here.

This isn't easy - I can understand that as well as most of the ladies on here. An infection will hinder the process and make you suffer even more. No bl**** male species is worth that. Try to gather the strength we are all sending you and contact one of us or someone. Please- I beg of you. Do this for us - we 're here with you and not going anywhere anytime soon.

We will step in when and if you need us to - whoever is closest. You are in a place which is very deep nd May not be able to see it getting better and I the hospital myself but you need to take care of your health. That is number one priority. Nothing else. No arguments. Get yourself back at hospital. What will your poor dog do if you get really ill? Get better as dogs only give love. Take up rileyroo offer or find someone close by. If you don't ask you don't get. There are good people out there who will help you once you explain the situation. 

It is what it is and you must take action now. Have pride in yourself and self respect - he's not concerned so why should you be about him? Be thankful yu had good times and found out his level of strength now. We are here - please please please I beg You, get yourself back at hospital. I send you tonnes of strength.x

Dizzel- My heart aches for u lass. 

Everyone is right.... it’s you who is important in all of this.

we all need you to see to you now. Ring the PDSA or the RSPCA  and ask them if they can temporarily take the dog for u they will have numbers for u to ring if they can’t help. 

You need to b in hospital lass.....and ask to speak with someone while there about how u are feeling. Don’t try to do this by yourself......this has gone beyond being on your own to lick your wounds....u are not well in body and that is the first thing that needs addressing. Rileyroo is right get yr *** in gear and get well. If this was your daughter what would u b saying to her now.....

Please keep posting...we are all very worried here and send our love and support.

I know it doesn’t feel it now and I know it sounds twee....but no denying the truth which is in time the heart always  does heal. Let’s get your body sorted first ️

My lovely dizzle. The ladies here have given you some sound advice and I do so hope that you are able to take it and take care of yourself. 

This disease/illness will certainly highlight cracks in our relationships and not all those relatiinships will survive. Hun i understand when you dont see it coming. I was with my ex partner for 15 years before it all ended so suddenly. At the time I thought it came from nowhere, but looking back now I can see that it was a long time in the making and we had been papering over the cracks and not facing it. At the time I was absolutely devastated so in no way am I saying you should just get over it. But you can get through it....in time.

My goodness lady you have taken on the big C and are doing fab....you can face whatever this is with Jamie...although looking at this from an outsiders view, he does appear to be making his feelings crystal clear in a very cruel way. Sometimes we all forget that we were perfectly fine before we met our partners and believe that our future happiness is only guaranteed with that person. I never thought I would get through it hun but I can look back now and say that if we hadn't split up I would not have my career today, my lovely youngest daughter, and the knowledge (and belief) that I don't need someone in my life to make me happy. It's all to raw for you right now and that's why you are probably on this kamikaze mission with your health. 

Now......i know from your previous posts that you have lots of people around you other than jamie. If you haven't already told them what's happened you really must. I know that's hard as once you probably feel that you have to protect Jamie from the harsh criticism he will probably and rightly get. Hun Jamie is not protecting you right now and therefore you do not owe him any protection either. He has to face the consequences of the decisions and actions he has made.

You might also feel that by telling someone, it makes it a no going back situation. Hun in life we can only move forward. You cannot grieve your relationship breaking down if you deny it has. You get stuck and it just makes the pain last longer. Don't make yourself suffer longer than you need to and please get your amazing network of friends and family to hold you up. 

Please get yourself back to the hospital, I'm sure someone will care for your dog while you recover. We are all desperately worried for you. Please please look after yourself. You are a tough lady and you cam get through this.

Much love xxx

Brilliant - please listen to Cornish, Drizzle - you know it makes a lot os sense and we all really care xx

Brilliant - please listen to Cornish, Drizzle - you know it makes a lot os sense and we all really care xx