Dear Carol  just hope the train doesn't break down, bet plenty of dusting and vacuuming soon to keep you occupied as well as clothes washing. 

Take care and hope things go well. 

Love Billy xxxx 

I'm finally home!  Norman is still comfy in the conservatory, our Golden rose has died due to the heat so is now cut back to stems, I watered the garden then the heavens opened and it was monsoon rain, after four weeks of none it was very refreshing. Fish and chips in oven, glass of pink wine now being drunk and my TV is re scanning, I did not have a good night last night, I had a dream that Norman had left me for someone else and I was heartbroken and started painting his golf clubs red to pay him back, I woke at 6.30 am feeling awful and realised what my dream had been, then realised he is no longer with us, it's horrible dreaming about someone being alive and walking up and remembering they are dead.  A quiet week for me, apparently Zippy looks very sad and can't understand where I've gone, I know how he feels.  Love Carol x 

It was Easter when I first saw my GP about my lump in my groin, today I had a telephone consultation and I'm happy to report that its nothing dodgy just a large fatty lump that needs removing, waiting time six months so by the time I'm sorted it would be nearly ten months since visiting my GP, good job  I'm not a worrier or i would be tearing  my hair out.  It does make me smile when others say its a week since my scan and nothing has happened, having been through the process many times I know that unless it's serious (like Norman's) no one rushes now days.  Anyway he wanted to know why I had a MRI on my brain, I explained that I was actually in because of my eye, they wanted a scan and when they saw I was booked in for my other scan they flipped me round and did the other end, that made him laugh, I'll get you in earlier if there's a cancellation he says.  I'm really tired, the heat has affected me so I'm trying to not do too much but the roses need pruning back, the grass needs cutting, the weeds have grown through the paving stones so relaxing is not really a choice.  Billy I hope all is still in place to have Bren home, Christine, how are you feeling now, Covid wipes you out, when I was leaving on Monday my phone pinged, a message said that i had been in close contact with someone who had covid and I needed to go on line and order a test kit, that's weird I thought, it's surely not still in place, no its not, it's a scam text, so be aware guys, they won't give in these scammers and will try anything.  Take care, Carol x 

Hi dear Carol. I decided to be such a pain they would be glad to get Brenda home and it worked they told me i can pick her up i went to the hospital main entrance and gave them details receptionists said she's down to return to Witham Court (psychiatric ward)i said no she's coming home, so receptionist. Changed paperwork, so it's all legal and above board. 

Brenda turned up plenty of bags loaded up including meds for a month including a nurse to help carry some bags, she was kind enough to help carry some things to the car for us. 

We had a slow run home plenty to talk about and enjoy each others company, bit of shopping on way because Brenda's tastes on food aren't same as mine. Got home had a good meal together first time for over 4 months. 

Still chasing carers up should be here in 2 weeks it's better than months or years. 

Checked through Brenda paperwork everything written down what she's been on and stopped pages of information. Including heart failure i know some of her meds caused problems but not that.

I've got to arrange with Dr about water tests, waiting for callback. 

Really glad your test results were ok despite being other end!!! .

Hope you can manage to get things tidy again in the garden.  People will be surprised to see you home after this long. 

Take care don't overdo things. 

Love Billy xxxx 

Hi Carol and Billy,

This is the first time for a week that I have had the energy to even look on here. You are so right, Carol, Covid absolutely wipes you out.  I had to call my doctor on Monday, my cough has been very productive whereas Covid coughs are dry but the night before I felt I was choking, trying to clear my chest and throat.  She immediately arranged to have a course of antibiotics delivered, as I must have a secondary infection. I do feel my chest is loosening up, quite well, but the antibiotics just make me feel more done in than the Covid alone. I don't feel so ill, now, the horrendously sore throat eased fairly quickly, I am just exhausted all the time.

I am glad you are, finally, home, Carol. There's nothing like the familiarity of home sweet home!
And Billy, I can't tell you how happy I am for you and Brenda. Good for you standing up for her! I'm proud of you.

Needless to say, I have done nothing except feel sorry for myself for the last ten days, so I have nothing of any interest to write about, so I will close now and snuggle down to go to sleep.

Christine xxx

Dear Christine, nothing to talk about you definitely are ill but hopefully you'll improve soon and we will hear from you more often. 

Brenda is getting to her usual bossy self now she's been home for a few days (it heavenly)things getting back to normal. 

Brenda not as steady on her legs yet swelling of legs nearly gone back to normal 

Hope things improve with you soon. 

Love Billy xxxx 

Christine, so pleased you're on the mend, covid left me with chest infections so I sympathise.  Billy, how happy you must be, love and care go a long way to putting things right.   Not had a good couple of days, as usual people not doing their job and really not caring about us oldies who are computer literate but not too fast, yesterday I had to set up a new bank account and it kept timing me out of the session, you only have 28 seconds left it said, 27, 26, 25, , 24, talk about pressure, so I went to the bank in person and ended up with the most unhelpful assistant on earth.  She made me fill it in on line on my I phone, which took ages, she left the room and I was timed out again, so I scrolled down and you could apply in the branch, I was actually in her office, in the bank! She came back and I pointed this out, oh yes she says but I don't have time to do it so book an appointment, first appointment 31st August.  Went to the optician's, new sun glasses, she couldn't log into my details because someone had added a note saying, No contact allowed!  Can't you override it I enquire, apparently not, so Boots are now waiting for a technician to sort it out. Two hours completly wasted.  I've just stayed home today, it's better for my blood pressure!!  Love Carol x 

Dear Carol, why are things so hard nowadays just can't talk to humans about things always machines. 

I've checked with Brenda Dr's reception this morning about water sample tests they don't trust me to do it right so got to take sample to Dr's every week. 

Still haven't got Brenda script yet asked this morning they still have her at psychiatric ward so had to explain she's at home after leaving hospital week last Saturday. Got some meds left but hopefully things arranged soon. 

Hope your getting back to normal routine at home and you can relax a bit. 

Christine hope you're improving even slowly, hope you're managing to get about abit and get stronger. 

Take care all. 

Love Billy xxxx 

Hi dear Carol. Hope you can get a few easier days than you have been having lately. 

I've finally managed to get dr to send Brenda's new prescription to chemist so i will actually know what she's on as paperwork from hospital is wrong when i phoned up to check as meds missing and others that have been stopped and still in bag, (why give you meds that you shouldn't take) .

Now im back on my cancer (hormone therapy)meds, I've started on alot of (mini tropical holidays) hot flushes, id just about forgotten about them as not having many lately for months. 

Hope things are going well for Carol and of course the quiet lady no need for a name, (hint Christine).

Take care dear ladies. 

Love Billy xxxx