Well I'm not alone in the world of writing my life so thanks for posting and it's a topsy turvey world we live in one minute we've medical people patting us on the shoulders and saying it'll soon be all over and then husbands rally ans you think "what the F" and it's back to normal and we're left to get on with it!!  We have two wheelchairs im the garage Norman won't use them but having wrecked my rib cage lifting them into the car I'm pleased so an electric one sounds good he's got little legs fortunately  Billy it's my daughter Lisa with the broken leg.  The gazebo sounded great but would end up covered in snow now.  How is the blood pressure doing  don't laugh but the surgery rang yesterday could hubby go in for a blood pressure test, why I asked, so we can do a health check.  I started laughing in a

manic fashion,  he has so much wrong with him, anyway they're not bothering but they may send a psychiatrist to see me!  Take care  love Carol

Sorry but my head's away with the fairies. Just posting to say I'm still following your journey and wish you the best.

Hi Taff how are you doing. I think I'm away with the fairies too it's the best place to be

I'm posting early because Tugs is driving up from Surrey to Teesdale to see and stay at the new cottage and as I have the key I'm off up there to meet him.  Hubby wanted to come but he will just be in the way, he always says hell be fine and then wants to go!  There are no chairs only one bed, a no cups, kettle practically zero stuff and as he drinks tea const I pointed this out so he's staying home. I have ached all over this week after my hectic week in Surrey and all the gardening at home, I was quite cross with myself about this and then realised I'm 73 in November and can no longer live life as fast as I used too!  But I'm still taking gardening stuff as the path is getting covered in bushes and will look empty (it is) but it needs to look like someone is home.  So thanks to those who popped on here to say I'm not alone, love to you all. Carol xx 

Enjoy Teessdale and the break away from normal will be good for you x

Thanks Snoopy!  Still awaiting instructions on when he'll arrive. Much preferred the olden days when we all knew what was happening in advance,  ie a phone call beforehand!!

Hi Carol er al,

I just spent ages typing a long message apologising for not popping in after begging you to keep blogging and bringing you up to date on my own rather boring adventures.  I don't know how but I touched something and the whole thing disappeared. I don't have time to repeat it, but please be assured that we are all still here, enjoying your posts.

Billy, I am amazed at the physical improvements being shown by Bren.  It is a testament to your care. I just hope you are taking care of yourself, too.

Christine xxx

So annoying Christine I've done that myself. Sunday did not go to plan as he was stuck on M25 so it was 5.20 when he arrived, fed up and in a bad mood as someone had driven into the back of his car at the service station!  Norman drove me up as apparently I'm not competent to drive in the dark anymore,  competent to do everything else but that!  So tugs was happy with cottage and videod Lisa and showed her round the holiday home. We got him settled and he stayed for two days meeting the new neighbours and going to the pub so all was well.  Hubby was his usual angsty self on Monday at the hospital appointment.  I told him to stop being so cross about everything but he's not well and has no patience at the moment. The clinic was an hour behind and we went in for approximately three minutes. Has my flu jab yesterday so a bad night as it bruised my arm and kept waking me up. We still have no TV due to the mast burning down but I love it as it's peaceful with no news and swearing at it.   Coffee with Flo and Christine on Wednesday but Flo is not well and is awaiting an MRI on her head or she presumed she was it turns out it wasn't referred.  Christine still waiting for second eye operation they said they would look at the consultant she had seen previously, is he operating from heaven she enquired as he's dead!  They didn't know and had still been adding to his list, oh my God it's all such a mess out there. So that's it for now. Lovely to hear from everyone. Carol xx

It's not been a good week.  Norman is not too good but we went for bloods on Tuesday, he calls me after I drop him off to say they won't let him in because there aren't any seats, it's freezing cold and he's left outside.  I'm furious and realise that they won't even know he's there as he can't book in.  So I park the car, walk up to the entrance and they finally let him in to be seen but they're busy so it could be some time, so I trudge back to the car and sit for another forty minutes until he's ready.  By Wednesday he is feeling worse but having stood in the cold I'm not surprised.  So yesterday morning he's wheezy and unwell and I call the surgery, they actually sent someone out to the house (it turns out they've put him down as housebound, I'm not going to correct them as it's far better for us).  Steroids and a sputem bottle are handed over but I must call the cancer team and make sure he can take them.  I do this and apparently they were going to call me as his white blood count is low and his blood platelets are falling, so treatment is cancelled.  Not a happy bunny when I relay this news and he goes into a deep depression.  In between all this his golf buggy has cost £260 for a service and it still doesn't work as it needs parts, every time we call they don't call back so we have to get cross with them and then we're being charged another £200 to replace the parts, it's cheaper than a new buggy he says!  Then Lisa face times me can Tugs park his car at ours and can I take him for the train to Edinburgh this morning, so that's been today, I dropped him off at the station, had my toe nails done to match my fingernails and went for coffee and scone.  Back home he has perked up as the steroids are kicking in, his buggy is being repaired and he has realised he's not well enough for the immunotherapy.  We now have to see a haemotoligist and you can bet your bottom dollar that the appointment will be the day I'm off to Fayes!  Take care, Carol x