my husband has kidney cancer, and has been battling it for 2 years now, he is going through the experimental side of treatment, but he is shutting me out, doesnt want me to go to treatment sessions with him or to see the doctor, i feel as if im treading on egg shells when i ask him anything, its just quick answer, wont explain anything, i feel so alone trying to deal with it, i know he mush be going thorough hell, hes in a lot of pain, but wont take the morphine injections as it makes him sleepy, he still works full time, as wont give up, but at he moment must be getting worse as he is actually some days not even going into work, but i go to talk to him about it, but he shuts me down, its driving me away from him, im begining to resent him and i dont want to spend time with him, the tension is effecting the kids behaviour, as they can sense something not right, im at my wits end with him shutting me out, he also doesnt feel he needs any help from the macmillian trust either, sometimes i just need someone to talk too and get it all off my chest, as he wont listen if he does it end in a argument
thanks for listening