HI ALL - Well, I had my scan yesterday and I AM IN REMISSION!!! Now, I of course am THRILLED and am sure you are ALL happy for me, however I have had a hard time posting this with the bad news...BUT, then I said to myself - If I can just let them know there is HOPE!!!! AND THERE IS - I am keeping it short as there is not more for me to say...Docotr every 3 months, my port flushed every 6 weeks - I asked for a blood test in six weeks, when port is flushed, and my nurse is more than happy to do so...that way I have a clue of where my #'s are as well as if anything is "off" - I will know then - I will still be here to offfer my prayers, my thoughts, my aches and pains, and best wishes for ALL of you....XXXXXXXOOOOOOOO - Becky

Ata girl Becky.That is such great news and dont ever feel as if you cannot tell good news.This is what keeps us focussed :love:

Get the wine in and have a fab weekend,you deserve it !!

Rose xxxx

Hi Jackie,Dot,EileenJayne and where are you Becky?Long time no hear !!

Hope you are all coping with the side effects and managing to have a good weekend.Have you still got any hair Jackie? Good tip about the glove.

Dizzie has started a blog site where we can follow each others journey if anyone wants to add to it.It is theraputic writing things down and handy if you forget when things happened.I am useless on the computer but even I did it !! It is under other discussions

Hope you are OK Eileen,I was hoping you would escape the horrible side effects.Jayne I hope things are better for you .You certainly deserve a break.Dot how are you my flower?Any more appts lined up ?

Best wishes and loads of hugs to you all

Rose xxx

Hi all,

Jackie I couldn't bear the hair coming out so I cut it all off lol and my daughter shaved it to neaten it up, I feel much better, my little four year old grand-daughter kept asking me to put my wig on, but my scalp is sensitive so I declined lol, she will get used to it eventually, everyone else seemed to accept it, I thought I would want to hide but I am fine, in fact I like it as long as I put make up on which I only used to use if I went out lol. My next chemo is on Friday 13th, good job I am not superstitious lol.

Good tip with the glove, I haven't had problems with any of my veins until it came to the chemo, they used the warm water trick and got it straight away. Sorry to hear about the thrush, hopefully it will clear up quickly.

Dot xxxxxx

Hi Rose,

two of my friends call me flower, so it was lovely that you used it too, hmmm wondering what type of flower I am lol.

Thanks for the note about Dizzie I will check it out, it does sound interesting.

Hope you are still feeling good.

Dot xxxxx

Oh Rose,

I loved your blog, I wrote a lovely long post but I couldn't post it as I don't have a blog, at least I think that is why lol.

You are an amazing lady Rose, I was tearful reading it, your journey hasn't been an easy one, yet you are always strong and helpful to everyone on this site, you have always been able to make me feel better with your kind and thoughtful words.

It was lovely to see the photo of you and your beautiful grandchildren. I am so glad I got to read it

Love Dot xxxxx

Jackie have you heard from Eileen?

I am hoping she is ok

Dot xx

Hi Dot,

And Ladies of course. I am ok now thanks but I am phoning the Hospital later to cancel my 6th and last chemo as I can't take anymore of it. I was thinking the other day that at first they said I would have 3 chemo then op then another 3 but as I have not had the op they have not given me break, so its been 5 months of hard chemo without a break. Unless they say that it can be reduced then I am not changing my mind. Everyone keeps saying just have the last one and its over with but that's easy to say, and its not over with. Its the begining of the nightmare of feeling so ill for 2 weeks.

I am glad Dot you are happy with your hair or not as the case may be. Its a great feeling I think having no hair and so easy to get ready. You will have to take a pic of it and change your profile. Everywhere I look these days there are celebs on the cover of mags and papers with bald women. And they all look amazing. Do you think we have set a new trend ???

I am still awaiting the birth of my grandchild who was due yesterday but nothing doing. I already Twin Grandchildren Benen & Patrick who will be 9 later this month so its a busy month. I am hoping to be able to go to Manchester to see them all but the way I am feeling I am not ready to go yet.

Anyway I look forward to hearing from you all. Hope your ok Jackie and not feeling to bad after your chemo.

Love as Always Eileen. xxxxxxxxxx

Hi all,

I hope you are all doing good.

Eileen it is good to hear from you, I gathered that the chemo was taking it's toll on you. I can't say I blame you about not wanting anymore, hopefully they can answer your questions and advise you whether you should carry on, they need to let you know that it is worthwhile, to give you that push to carry on, I hope you hear something good from them.

Ah the baby is due, the time seems to have flown since you first mentioned it, I do hope that you get the strength to be there for your daughter and your new grandchild.

I have only had one cycle of chemo and I don't think I can really grumble about mine, but I guess it probably gets worse as it goes along, would be nice if it didn't!! Next cycle is Friday ugh.

You are always in my thoughts Eileen, I hope you get to hear something good soon.

I have noticed that I use the word hope a lot when posting and I can't find another word to use instead, unless I use pray and not everyone is into that, so sorry if it sounds repetitive.

Love to all

Dot xxxxxxx

Hi Ladies

Dot its good to hear your not suffering to much from the chemo, it does get worse but not much, more an energy thing for me anyway! Poor Eileen you seem to get all the side effects for all of us, I think you'll find that they always give 6 doses so while they may delay it (very short delay!) they will want you to have it. It's so difficult for you espically as it has been so drawn out due to the hosp admissions while I'm thinking 2 down only 4 to go!

Had busy weekend but totally energyless today! Just got my letter through to say ill-health retirement approved so now waiting for the pensions agency to tell me what that ammounts to!

Looking forward to hear of the birth of your next grandchild soon!

Loosing lots of hair (but I've loads to loose!) haven't bothered to shave it yet as am debating if I can pay a visit to a freinds child Thurs, she'd not overely keen on me bald or with bandama! Not sure I'll make it as getting fed up with it now, looking forward to the release it gives you :)

As you can see, head all over the place today so I'll love and leave you

Take care

Jackie xxxxx

Jackie it is good to hear from you, I hope your ill-health retirement will give you a comfortable amount to live on, fingers crossed for you!!

I love it now my hair is gone lol, I look like a shaolin monk lol, hoping I will be brave enough to go out without wearing a bandana or wig, I will find out Friday when I go across London for chemo haha, now that is a test, I will let you know what happens.

A special hug for you Jayne hoping you are keeping strong

Love to all

Dot xxxxx

Dot,

You look amazing with no hair. I told you it makes you feel better. You will find the back of your head gets cold though, and I always walk about with my dressing gown hood up and I look like the mad monk.

I forgot to ring the Hospital up but will do this week. Its funny as everyday you get that bit more energy and start to forget how ill you have been.

Jackie you will be next then to lose the locks so we shall await the next monk to join the monastery .... Love to you Rose & Hilary and Jayne and anyone else I forgot. Love Eileen. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Dot,

You look amazing with no hair. I told you it makes you feel better. You will find the back of your head gets cold though, and I always walk about with my dressing gown hood up and I look like the mad monk.

I forgot to ring the Hospital up but will do this week. Its funny as everyday you get that bit more energy and start to forget how ill you have been.

Jackie you will be next then to lose the locks so we shall await the next monk to join the monastery .... Love to you Rose & Hilary and Jayne and anyone else I forgot. Love Eileen. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Eileen and ladies,Becky,I hope you are on holiday or something because we havent heard from you for a while.

You are really having a bad deal Eileen but as you say when you start to feel better you think its not so bad after all.Like childbirth that way !!Any news of the baby?Ours is 9 days overdue now and being induced tomorrow so fingers crossed.Hope things get better soon,you dont deserve this.

Dot,you look like a smilie !!:cool: Its fab,I love smilies.

Have a lovely evening girls,

Rose xxx