Hi thanks for you reply

I went to the breast clinic on monday for biopsy results  as there was calcium in my breast. the doctor told me I had nothing to worry about but it turns out there were cancer cells in the biopsy but no lump.I had only gone becaus of a large lump wich was a non cancerous cyst. The mri scan on the breast is for them to find out if they can see anything as the mamogram and ultrasound found nothing. I have been back into work for two days, I am a nursery nurse It has helped being busy at work. i am trying to be normal, everyone at work knows, but it is my daughters 13th birthday on sat, I havnt told her yet as I have nothing concrete to tell her, I am trying not to break down, spent the first 2 days doing that!!! My partner is fantastic , she is trying so hard to be strong for me. My heads all over the place and it feels so surreal...i'm 38 years old...I dont  feel like I should be in this situation...I gues its normal to feel this way ?

Kez

Hi Rose

Good to see you giving advice n doing what you do best! I know you're not your best but hope you are managing ok.

I'm always on my iPod now n I miss my computer! It's a bit heavy but I like the bigger screen. Now I pick up the pod, have a quick look n put it down again. I can't write a proper message cos I can't see what I've wrote! Blame my mum! She bought it for my birthday. It's really interfered with cancer chat. Don't like that!

So anyway, hope you are all well ish ladies? I'm gonna be honest. Ive found a lump n got app on wed. Too scared to tell hub or parents cos I know how they will feel! I am ok I don't think it's anything to worry about but scared to mention it! Only problem is, funding has finished for charly the day before. Which makes it difficult to disappear to an app without anybody knowing. N my mum is starting back at work next week! What do I do?? Ideas are welcome n appreciated!

Love to you all xxxxxx

Hi there Kez, sorry to hear you're going through this, but you need to keep strong and positive, no point int telling your daughter anything until you know for def, I really struggled to tell my girls and they are 23 and 21, but they were great and nowadays so many people from tv, sally from corrie, kylie etc, have all beaten this horrible disease, keep posting, one of us in usually on here.

Leonie, fingers crossed this lump is nothing, but babe if youre really stuck for someone to watch Charly maybe you should tell Jon, he may be upset if he finds out later, he's been brilliant throughout all this, so Im sure he will be just as strong, let me know how you get on, wish I lived nearer i would watch charly for you, Rose and the rest of you gals and Tony, hope you are all well, Im feeling good at the mo, have my first mammogram at end of month since all my treatment  xxx

Hey Hun glad things are going well.  I don't want to worry him col. Poor sod has been through enough n I'm sure it is ok! I'm alright but don't think he will be til results! Would rather say I was going for?? Something he wouldn't question til I knew something, if you understand?! Love you xxxx

hi you

i have another lump too tried ignoring it then told drs they said probably alright so I tried to ignore again !I go back to work tues having party 4th june to celebrate its all over !!*** it better be !! hxxxaving mamagram on tuesday (same day back at work (I too havent told hubby etc they couldnt cope xx sure it will b fine .but I really cant sleep went to dr today got some pillls we will see xxbabe I know how u feel xxlove hugs xxxx

love to all nina

Hey Hun glad things are going well.  I don't want to worry him col. Poor sod has been through enough n I'm sure it is ok! I'm alright but don't think he will be til results! Would rather say I was going for?? Something he wouldn't question til I knew something, if you understand?! Love you xxxx

Oh Nina I remember when we met up you said about your lump! Glad you spoke to the doctor regarding it. Really hope all is well too. Mine is little n I'm not that bothered at all but still daren't mention it! Just need an excuse to get away for a couple of hours while I need babysitter too! ??? Love you Hun n good luck for work babe! Xxx

love and hugs iam sure we will both b fine xxgood luck with babysitter wish i was closer xxx

Hi thanks

I have a friend at work who has had cancer twice and all the treatments so it hs been good to talk to her. I am having more positive moments tan negative at the moment but its always there in my head from the minute I wake u to the minute I go to sleep, and that awful nervous belly feeling that wont go away either. I am feeling exhausted through lack of sleep and have been taking nytol to try and hel me sleep better.

I hope that you are all keeping as well as you can be...its amazing to read through this thread and see how stong you ladies are