Hi everyone its been a long time since Ive been on AGAIN because the computer has been playing up AGAIN and its made me very  . could do with a new one but this time of year its an expense we can't afford! I've been reading back a few posts but it will take me forever to catch up so wondered if you could all just update me on how you are all doing!! Its lovely to be back in the community I've been on a bit of a rollercoaster last two months and am waiting for the straight jacket to arrive lol!! Seriously does anyone else get really angry!! My anger has been uncontrollable at times with me even smashing a wall and it has really upset me!!

Please be intouch

LOTS AND LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU ALL

Louise

Hi Louise

Sorry to hear you are having problems with your computer and your emotions.I dont get angry because I find it just leaves me feeling worse in the long run,plus my last treatment has damaged my heart so at the moment I cant get stressed.Waiting to see the heart specialist in 2 weeks and when he gives me a magic pill I will be fine.You have been through so much for so long.Can you have some sort of therapy or a massage or reiki treatment to help?Being on here should help to unload so rant away and let us help.No more wall hitting!!!

Stay strong

Rose xx

hi patrica

how are you? how you feeling lately? hope alls well with you n your big boys.

im alright, be glad when my body is better. fed up of pain! got 2 more treatments left n thats my year complete. cant wait to start healing.

lots of love to you. leonie xxxxx

hi nina

hope you are managing ok. roll on friday n the last of your chemo. hope it goes as well as it can. be thinking of you n will raise a glass in celebration.

love leonie xx

hi colly

roll on friday for you too hun! thats your last rad isnt it? i hope your boob isnt like mine. in a few weeks the red n burning will feel better but then you got the scabs which isnt nice. horrible word isnt it! hope aloe vera heals it quicker for you n takes away some of the pain. i finished in september n my boob still hurts now but lymphadema started back then. i hope so much you dont get it n everything starts going back to normal for you. congratulations for friday n the end of treatment. will raise a glass to you too in celebration n wish you a healthy year.

lots of love leonie xxxxxx

thanks leonie

hope u r feeling better. thanks for u best wishes. last chemo 2morrow just want it ove.r i have had cold so hope my counts r ok! i will be raising a glas on 16th (my birthday )if i feel ok by then. i know i have radio to go but just cant wait for chemo 2 b over .

have been thinking of u all over christmas and new year. lets hope 2011 is better for us all xxxxx

lots love and hugs to all xx

Hi guys n gals, i'll certainly try and get my hands on some pure aloe vera from health shop, leonie babe my last day is actually mon 10th as missed a day with the bad snow, my boob is very red, this week is just the boost week so machine seems to just concentrate on the area where the tumour was. Hope you had a lovely xmas and new year, here to pain free for you. catch up soon xxx

Hi Leonie,

Sorry to hear that you are still suffering. So when do you actually finish your treatment?

Well, I'm pleased to report that I have just finished my first two days back at work after 13 long months.  Phased return, only doing 4 hours, 3 days a week to begin with (only two this week because of the Bank Holiday. LOL) Have to say the 4 hours 10.00 till 2.00 is enough, by 1.00 on Tuesday I was starting to flag and today I was doing a bit of clock watching.  Have told them that I can't pick up anything really heavy at the moment, need to rebuild my muscle power. It was a bit strange on Tuesday had all sorts of mixed feelings.  Felt like it was my first day at work as I had forgotten a lot and it was also the day 12 months ago that I had my mx.

My youngest son has seen the consultant at the hospital and is now having more tests for his hormone problem, plus had an x-ray taken of his hip as he has been complaining about it hurting for a while now.  Only found out this week that apparently he has had pain in this hip since he was a kid but never said anything until now.  So we are now waiting for results.

Take care, love

Patricia x

Hi colly,

I have just read your post regarding radiotherapy and the soreness. I am due to start my radiotherapy on monday 10th jan. I found an article in a magazine, and the person in the article was undergoing radiotherapy to be exact she said she was 2 thirds of the way through. She claims that after 1 application Botanicles Therapeutics cream the discomfort went.  It costs about £13.30 for 120ml. She says she uses it to several times a day to great effect. If you do try this and it is good I would love to know. Hope you get some relief you sound very sore.

I also have a very large scar on my breast that goes from one side of the boob up and over to the other side, and had real problems wearing any bras.  I wear little camisole tops with hidden support, if you go to the underwear department in Primark they have them there in all colours and the best bit they are only £1.50.

Good luck with everything.

from one" C "monster slayer to another!!!!  Keep going.

Sue

Hi Sue I think during radiotherapy hospital are very wary about using creams other than the ones they supply "just incase" but as from mon when my treatment finishes I will try the pure aloe vera, the hosp supply you with aqueous cream but when the skin is broken they supply a gel, which does seem to be doing the trick, i will certainly pop into primark and have a look, I also have 2 scars so they are quite sore just now. Good luck with your treatment. Colette xx

Hi Sue,

          If I could just back up what Colly is saying about using other creams. I had radiotherapy for rectal cancer and by the end my bum was really sore in that I could hardly sit down and dreaded going to the loo. I went to my doctor and while he prescribed some creams he also advised just to check with the radiotherapy department at the hospital. I contacted them and they came back saying do not use the creams recommended and instead they prescribed two types of water based gel type material. There is no question that this worked very well and quite quickly. Prior to the doctor I had tried a whole range of proprietary products from the chemist but none seemed to be able to take the edge off. Consequently because of this experience I am a bit wary of trying anything other than what those specializing in the subject recommend.

Take care and all the best.

Graham

Happy New Year to you all, this has been my first week back at work, really enjoyed it was good to see everyone again am training quite hard at the gym again trying to build up some strength in my left arm and also shed some of those unwanted pounds gained over the last 7 months, anyway got a bit of hair now but much too cold to go out without hat or wig, not quite sure what colour it will be,however my husband says it has special hightlights in it at the moment........... I think what he is trying to say is there is some grey in there! I dont care just want my hair back.

Good luck Colly and Lonie another step closer to closing the door on 2010, I have to say Colly I didnt really struggle with the rads, was a little red but nothing too bad so not very helpfull with the answers on that one, however the breast nurse did give me a square pad that fitted over my breast to stop the rubbing of the bra or clothes and it was wonderful, maybe you could ask about that.

Well Im off to the gym now girls and boys so I shall send much love and good wishes to you all.

Lots of love Lee xxxxxxxx

Happy New Year to you all, this has been my first week back at work, really enjoyed it was good to see everyone again am training quite hard at the gym again trying to build up some strength in my left arm and also shed some of those unwanted pounds gained over the last 7 months, anyway got a bit of hair now but much too cold to go out without hat or wig, not quite sure what colour it will be,however my husband says it has special hightlights in it at the moment........... I think what he is trying to say is there is some grey in there! I dont care just want my hair back.

Good luck Colly and Lonie another step closer to closing the door on 2010, I have to say Colly I didnt really struggle with the rads, was a little red but nothing too bad so not very helpfull with the answers on that one, however the breast nurse did give me a square pad that fitted over my breast to stop the rubbing of the bra or clothes and it was wonderful, maybe you could ask about that.

Well Im off to the gym now girls and boys so I shall send much love and good wishes to you all.

Lots of love Lee xxxxxxxx

Hi lee well done to you for getting back to work, have you went back full time or part? I've got a line till end of feb then using my hols for march then phasing gently in April. I really need to get to the gym, my bones are so stiff with all the treatment, lack of oestrogen they say. My boob really red and peeling, the gel hosp supply is really good, I usually tan but seemingly that goes for nothing, I've been braless for a couple of weeks now lol, just wearing boob tube tops. Happy birthday leonie hope you had a fab day. Colette x