hi im 36 mother of 3 n diagnosed dec 23. ive had 2 ops n 5 of 6 chemo n finding it very hard at mo. feel so peed off n cant get rid of that feeling. would love to chat. x
Hi everyone its been a long time since Ive been on AGAIN because the computer has been playing up AGAIN and its made me very . could do with a new one but this time of year its an expense we can't afford! I've been reading back a few posts but it will take me forever to catch up so wondered if you could all just update me on how you are all doing!! Its lovely to be back in the community I've been on a bit of a rollercoaster last two months and am waiting for the straight jacket to arrive lol!! Seriously does anyone else get really angry!! My anger has been uncontrollable at times with me even smashing a wall and it has really upset me!!
Sorry to hear you are having problems with your computer and your emotions.I dont get angry because I find it just leaves me feeling worse in the long run,plus my last treatment has damaged my heart so at the moment I cant get stressed.Waiting to see the heart specialist in 2 weeks and when he gives me a magic pill I will be fine.You have been through so much for so long.Can you have some sort of therapy or a massage or reiki treatment to help?Being on here should help to unload so rant away and let us help.No more wall hitting!!!
OH !!!!!*******++F<>**** This is just too much Caz !!!
Your head must be a total jumble.Words fail me,which as you know is not like me.Stay in there babes,we will always be here when you need to scream and shout.I will make sure yours is a double.
I just wanted to post you my good wishes as it is surely a hell of a storm that has decended on your head.I chose not to have reconstruction partly because i felt there was a limit to what i could cope with and its not like you cant change your mind further down the line.I hope when your man has had some time away he will realise what a bad choice he is making and how lucky he is to have you and frankly if he dosent you are well rid of him.
caroline, take heart. About five maybe six years ago, on losing my dad and having saved a lot of money for a house, i thought i had everything, good man good life and blah blah with just sadness nursing my sister through cancer having just lost dad. One morning, out of the blue, a day we were going to view the house we wanted, he threw a fit so to speak, accused my son of stealing sseveral hundred pounds out of his wallet and walked out. The kids and i were devasted. I went to peices. I found out a few weeks later, he had taken personal sentitmental stuff from the house and a huge huge wad from the savings account and there was nothing i could do about it. He hadn't paid rent for more than six months, nor council tax and they were all in my name, but all i was eveer told was that everything was under control and up to date. more fool me for not checking. Anyway, after a period of depression, i came through and had a new outlook. I really thought i was made up for life and we SEEMED to be so much in love after five years that it took a fair while to get over the emotional stuff. however, a friend said to me that although i had been treated bad, the second person in my life was better than the first and the third better than the second. She said that we only learn as we progress. When i was still thousands and thousands of pounds in debt, a single parent with four kids, one with chronic asthma in and out of hosp and one with aspergers, i thought life would never get better. But you know what, i kept plodding on and here i am today with many blessings. I have a guy i have been with for five years through thick and thin, he drives me mad sometimes but no matter what gets thrown at us, he is there, supports the kids, keeps us sane and focused, and he even went to work to pay my bills! The children grew and went off and did their own things, the asthma greatly improved and my son sorted his life out. I then got beautiful grandchildren.
The emotional feelings - scars, fears, treatments and all of that on top of this awful news must be so difficult for you right now. But as always out of the dark comes a light, and here you have a whole bunch of people who will help you every step of the way to building a NEW and BRIGHTER future as and when you feel ready to take small steps. When life gets that bloody rotten, there is only one way to go, and that is onwards and upwards, and there are so many hands reaching to you right now and so many cyber hugs and warm wishes - you must remember that at all times and come talk when you need.
So I don't say merry christmas to you Caz, because I know it won't be no matter how hard you try, but i will say that 2011 will change you and your life, and believe me, it can better and brighter than you ever thought possible as you put 2010 and its crap behind you.
im like you, i want everyone to have a happy new year,if only it was possible but you have to believe dont you so i would like to wish you a happy new year.
Oh Caroline, I'm so sorry that you've got yet another thing to cope with now.....
I've been checking your blog regularly but you hadn't updated for a while and I've only just seen your post on here. I feel so sad for you, both about the trauma of the op and now the problems with your marriage.
I know you have lots of support from the ladies on here, they are a fantastic bunch (and not forgetting the guys too of course) but I just wanted you to know that I read your post and am so very sorry that he feels unable to cope at the moment.
2010 wasn't good to you Caroline, I sincerely hope that 2011 is much kinder
Oh Caroline, I'm so sorry that you've got yet another thing to cope with now.....
I've been checking your blog regularly but you hadn't updated for a while and I've only just seen your post on here. I feel so sad for you, both about the trauma of the op and now the problems with your marriage.
I know you have lots of support from the ladies on here, they are a fantastic bunch (and not forgetting the guys too of course) but I just wanted you to know that I read your post and am so very sorry that he feels unable to cope at the moment.
2010 wasn't good to you Caroline, I sincerely hope that 2011 is much kinder
